What to do when you know you're pretty much worthless.

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I don't even have college going for me anymore, I can't freaking concentrate.......I try and sit down start on some homework I can't seem to focus on it at all, then I just feel frusterated which feeds the complete lack of motivation I've been experiancing. I have no idea what else to do besides college.......finding a job is unlikely, SSI might be a possibility if I ever get any documentation of the mental issues I have......but this semester is over unless I can somehow manage to think this horrible state of mind away and failing=no financial aid so maybe I should go get diagnosed before I run out of grant/loan money for college.


yeah I am pretty much screwed so I guess I better enjoy myself while I can.......because things from here can only go downhill.

In darkness, we find light

if you fail a semester for medical reasons, it might not affect your financial aid status. my college roommate failed a semester due to a schizophrenic episode. she went back the next year and is a doctor now. if i were you, i'd call my doc first thing in the AM, and see of you can get this sorted out.

If I believed that I was worthless, I'd never post about how worthless I believed myself to be, because no one would give a damn anyway. It would be like shouting, "Hey, everybody! Listen to me! I have nothing important to say!"

One love.

awe, sweetleaf

Perhaps you are burnt out, I heard/read somewhere people with AS really have to look out for burning out, because we can A) get overwhelmed easily, and B) don't typically understand our limits... (I didn't hear much :p lol)

Have you tried taking supplements? like fish oils, and or the veggy fruit diet?

Instead of taking a mental health day, try taking a mental health week of just water, and natural foods, I've been taking fish oils again and it is helping more with my over all happiness more than it is with actual cognitive ability.

Worthless and slow? where's the hyperactivity and hyper-stimulation???

I was recently depressed, so I know what you mean about healing sadness vs healing depression, my above comments mostly pertain to day-to-day sadness. :s

Depression, is pain. And pain is real. Sadness can be manipulated out of existence, it's not quite like depression.

Anxiety depressive disorder, is the build up of anxiety causing depression, Which is most likely the case for you.

You talked about being burnt out, which is most likely the case, ocams razor*
Which would most likely trigger anxiety depressive disorder,

Before answering or figuring out the answer or finding solutions, it might be better to adress your problem at hand....which is either -

A) drop out, take a mental health month. resume in january - take summer courses to make up for this fall term.

B) find ways to stay motivated and to push through things happier than ever?

I realized just now that It's very late, and I should not be typing with such low blood sugar lol - I'm off to make a snack!

hopefully I helped even a bit.

Have you tried an energy drink or green tea? or Diet? Seems to help.

I was in college for two years, changed majors halfway through, and was failing the entire time. I now believe that I wasn't able to learn because I never studied, which is in turn because I never needed to study. I would watch documentaries and go to museums and places and I would remember enough of everything I'd learned to get through grade school. I rarely had spectacular grades, and I rarely did homework, but still did more than well enough to graduate.

In college, information moved too fast for my brain to keep up, but I didn't recognize was happening, so I tried to pay attention more, and more information slipped through the cracks. Whenever I go back, I intend to have some kind of recording deceive.

For the record, I was "academically dismissed" from the college, meaning that I would have to make an appeal and suffer some boring meetings to prove that I am "willing to try again" or whatever they delude themselves into believing. Before my dismissal, one of my HS classmates informed me that he'd been through the process two or three times already, so I figure it's just bureaucracy.

If allowed back, I will be un-matriculated and thus part-time until my GPA is over 2 again, which is fine with me. Taking four completely different classes at once was more irritating than HS.

Do you tend to overwhelm yourself and try to tackle everything at once? You should take it one step at a time and tackle the smallest things no matter how insignificant. This gets the ball rolling and nothing inspires motivation and confidence like momentum. I find it is much easier to focus when I take things second by second and focus on the moment rather than what happened or what's going to happen next.