22 Nov 2011, 11:29 am
I have been depressed since September 4th when my bunny rabbit Jenifer died. I always get more depressed at this time of year anyway and now that has joined my grief. I feel like I am going mad. I am being overwhelmed by negativity. It doesn't help that I found out yesterday that I am not going home for Christmas. I am staying in my care home with some random member of staff who will probably be in a bad mood becuase they would rather be at home with their own family than a depressed autistic person.
I had made plans to finally get my GCSE qualifications back. I had decided that maths, psychology and science would be my three subjects. Today we spoke to the colleges. I can do maths for £80 because I am on benefits and I am under 25 with less than 5 GCSE certificates. I cannot do science because they willl only let you do the course if you have a job to go to after. I just want to re-take, I can't get a fricking job. The psychology doesn't EVER offer consession rates it is over £300 whihc I can never afford. I am not even that good at maths. I have actually got so depressed about it now that I have basicallyt sayd that the bullies have won over me. They force me out of school when I was 15 with nothing but emotional nad phycial pain and now I can't get my qualifications that I wanted.
sorry about yhe poor typing. I am having a lot of bad tics today.
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I have HFA, ADHD, OCD & Tourette syndrome. I love animals, especially my bunnies and hamster. I skate in a roller derby team (but I'll try not to bite
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22 Nov 2011, 1:17 pm
22 Nov 2011, 1:38 pm
She was a black and white Dutch dwarf. I miss her so much.
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I have HFA, ADHD, OCD & Tourette syndrome. I love animals, especially my bunnies and hamster. I skate in a roller derby team (but I'll try not to bite
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