ghostar wrote:
I have always lived with that same feeling. Even right now as I stand at my desk in my work cubicle, I feel like a tiger pacing back and forth in a cage just waiting for someone...anyone to get close enough for me to tear their head off.
I have always tried to channel this feeling into physical exercise or self-medicating behaviours. The former being, obviously, far healthier.
I have noticed that it gets worse when I don't give myself enough down time i.e. time alone. If I let my work and personal life get too busy, then it seems like the dark side of me gets stronger.
It is almost like she (my dark side) sits inside me waiting for the "good" me to get too tired to keep her in her corner any longer and then she pounces. It never ends well.
Anyway, I would recommend wearing yourself out physically if you have the time. Go running, play tennis with one of those ball-throwing machines, jump up and down...whatever you can do to get the energy out of you.
That is the thing. Physical activity hasn't done squat. This also tends to be a summer thing for me, first time Ive gotten like this in winter, which means Hypersensitivity to cold isn't fun. It can delay the inevitable but I truly only feel even remotely at peace after a huge lashing out. The only one that really worked was the LARPing group. Beating the s**t out of people with a padded PVC pipe-weapon helped alot. Too bad the group split up and that I have no time freed up to bother with finding another one. (Distance is a big issue for me)
As for another persons comment. I don't break stuff due to the cost of replacing stuff (considering i have many expensive things/collectables...)
I do think that its just pent-up violent tendencies instead of too much energy to sum it up as best as I can.