Can't take it anymore.

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FML. It's not that they don't understand, it that they don't even TRY to understand! I'm sick of this. I need a safe environment, and this is not it. Being forced into therapy, yelled at for meltdowns, and told what to do with every minute of my day. It literally makes me sick. No matter how much I strive to be accepted, they say I need to be 'fixed'. When I try to pursue my own interests, I'm told they are 'wrong' or 'useless'. When I need help, I am denied it, because I need to 'learn'. When I need company, everyone has something more important to do. I can't live like this anymore. I wish there was somewhere I could go where I could be myself. I'm expected to submit to authority like a child, but care for myself like an adult. If I would just 'stop being so goddamn autistic' maybe they wouldn't have to control me. Maybe they wouldn't have to yell at me, berate me, and institutionalize me. If I just 'grew up', maybe they wouldn't have to tell me what to do. I am SO SICK of this. I deserve better. I am a human being.

Yes, you deserve better. You are in good company here at WP.

I'm with emtyeye on this one.

*hugs*

I'm sorry.

We're here for you.

If your family or room mates aren't appreciative or understanding towards you, you need to find or move in with people that are. I agree, there are plenty of people here with understanding and empathy and I hope you find the support and acceptance you need.

I really feel for you... And yes, you DO deserve better... You are worth the attention you apparently aren't getting and the understanding they don't have... As Wolfheart says, you need to find someone who appreciate and understand you...

All the best of luck from here...

I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. I don't know if it could help for you to share some books with them of biographies of others with Aspergers? I wonder if they just don't understand Asperger's enough, and are therefore trying to do the best they know how. Unfortunately, in the process, it seems they are hurting you. I personally am a big fan of Rudy Simone and John Elder Robison. You might want to start there and share those books with your family?