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I'm depressed and hopeless. I screwed everything up. The s**t torpedo has been launched and is zeroing in on an unfortunate fan somewhere, and I don't know when it's going to hit but at this point I know it's coming. Too bad I don't have friends to cheer me up! That's my fault too, but I guess they weren't real friends anyway since they never even made the effort to contact me.
I hate life!

What did you screw up? At first I was confused by the torpedo analogy, thinking it was an actual torpedo and then I thought that "fan" referred to a person but after re-reading I see that you were making reference to a figure of speech.

Is that a general attack on The Haven, Dent?

Gambatte!

Depression makes you feel guilty and regretful about things you don't need to feel that way about, and a sense of doom and hopelessness about the future. In other words I don't know what you've done but I doubt it's anything worse than anyone else here has done, and I doubt your future is doomed like you think it is. They're just painful distortions from depression. Are you getting any kind of treatment for depression/anxiety/etc.?

No. That's a general attack on my whining and complaining. I'm a conflicted person.
The main thing is that I turned down a job offer because I'm lazy and depressed and thought that my dad would be able to sort out his own affairs, but he's just retired and the bank and insurance company have royally screwed him over. They've been withholding his money from him for almost 2 weeks and the insurance company keeps switching numbers around so he has to pay more, but he can't because he doesn't have money. I won't get into my college problems, but my two friends have more or less dumped me and disappeared so I'm just sort of floundering about alone all the time while other people are moving on and taking care of things.

Don't beat yourself up, you're not lazy, you're depressed. The insurance company sounds like it's being ridiculous. Whining and complaining it's not, I mean everyone needs someone to tell their problems to so they don't corrode them from the inside and I know it's very difficult when real-life friends are nowhere to be found. Do you have any relatives who might be able to help you sort things out? Or advisors/counselors of any kind?

'Damn the torpedoes Full speed ahead'

I have applied this phrase as my mantra when I feel like you do. To face the possible destruction in ones path, sometimes you just have to do it.

This song by Doug and the Slugs helped me a lot also:

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XjqehifGQmY&feature=results_video&playnext=1&list=PL9ECC90BE41AE5E53[/youtube]

I charged through the minefield and surprise surprise, my legs blew up.
But not as badly as I expected. Things did get worse, but the potential for recovery is definitely there. I'm not so worried about my dad now that he's got support from other family members.
I am about to fail a college class but I don't really care now, the money is already spent so there's no use crying about it. I have A's and B's in everything else so that's some mollification.

Don't stick your head in the sand, Dent. Contact a student welfare officer or counsellor and see if there's a chance you can get another chance on the course that you failed. Good luck!