Physical Pain Driving a Person to Suicide

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As in, me. It's a legit medical condition that causes me to be in more and more pain and will continue to do so until I find a course of treatment that works to reduce said pain.

I just hate thinking it could be the end of me because when I'm in enough excruciating pain I don't think in terms of "It'll have to end eventually" or that it isn't always that bad, I know it wouldn't be difficult for me to end my life. Just to escape the physical pain, and thinking about how much that would hurt my husband and my family is no deterrent when I'm in so much pain that I'm blinded to reason and logic.

I don't know, I guess I just wanted to vent about this because I'm sometimes scared for my husband, that he might lose me, and my dad, and the people I love.

Blah. I'll now go back to enjoying the sedated state I'm in as I type this.

Do you see a pain management doctor? I'd suggest that right away. There are lots of meds and procedures etc that can be used to help. Also, unless you are having to increase he amounts of your pain meds frequently, you should develop a tolerance to them so you won't be so "out of it" all the time on them.

I hope you find something to help the pain.

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Oh, I am so sorry!
My mother experienced this last year when she broke her ankle. The pain medication they gave her was not only uneffective, but gave her hallucinations. One moment she was lucid, even cheerful, and an hour later she would begging to die.
I agree about finding a pain specialist. Don't be "a good patient," be demanding and ask questions because the squeaky wheel usually gets the grease.
BTW, my mother got through it. She still feels discomfort for all the plates and screws in her ankle, but her pain is managable now.

I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. I've had some pain issues due to joint and musculokeletal problems over the past six months and when it was at its worst, it was like my whole personality changed and it really effected my relationships, work and just about every aspect of my life.

Do you feel comfortable sharing what your medical condition is? Some of us might be able to able to offer advice or suggestions, but I don't want to make things more frustrating by tossing out ideas that wouldn't be useful for your specific situation.

I'm really sorry you are feeling so bad. I'd second what OliveOilMom says and recommend that you ask to be referred to a pain management specialist, unless you are already doing so. Sometimes it's a matter of trial and error to find the right meds that work for you and your condition. I know you haven't mentioned the details of your condition, but if there's any way you can be more open about that side of things, maybe there are others on here who have dealt with severe/chronic pain, due to a similar condition, who could help you more. My mum is currently dealing with severe chronic pain, with no option but pain management. She gets some relief, with an injection in her spine every few months and the effects only last for 3 weeks, but it has been a godsend to her. I hope stories like this can give you some hope.

Well I can honestly say I don't know a whole lot about that sort of thing, as I deal more with psychological pain. But I can kinda get how that could get in the way of any logical thinking about it obviously if the pain is that bad that is going to be what your brain focus on, not how your family would feel.

As for the sedated state you mentioned does that reduce the pain at all or help any? and is the treatment for the issue for sure going to help as far as you know? anyways I hope things end up working out.

I get the same thing but I don't feel suicidal. I have meltdowns and end up going to emergency just to get myself out of pain.
I have nerve damage in my back and have issues with my reproductive system. Drs don't do much to help find the cause. They just tell Neice to "relax and don't be so anxious".
I am not diagnosed as Aspergers - I can't afford assessment . I am wondering if extreme sensitivity to pain is kind of common in girl Aspies. I also cannot take too many meds out there because they have ill effects on me. Again drs don't try to figure out why they just say "don't be so anxious"
A small part of it is anxiety of taking things but its definitely not the biggest reason of why I get sick off of them all the time . Can't help that I have a weak tummy.

That's horrible. As someone else said, would you consider sharing more specifics of your condition? I'm sure a lot of people on here have experience dealing with pain in many ways. My partner has a chronic illness that is very painful for him. Even though he typically has an incredibly high pain threshold, he has reached the point of being borderline suicidal because of it. He has ways of dealing with it now, but I don't want to go into detail if that's unwelcome or inappropriate feedback in this conversation.

It's a type of neuralgia, it's often referred to as "the suicide disease" due to the number of suicides related to it.

It's not that I need ways to cope, and I am seeking medical help, it's just that until something does work I don't know that I'll be able to make it through each episode without resorting to suicide. I obviously don't want to kill myself but in those periods(sometimes minutes, sometimes it lasts hours) all I want or think about is ending the pain and suicide often becomes my only option to end the physical agony.

It sucks, I hope I don't, but if I do I really hope my husband/family/friends are able to cope with that loss and move on, I know the pain of losing someone you love and it's just... I hope that doesn't happen for them.

Now I'm supposed to be willing to be on a steady diet of oxycodone(I refused morphine, I don't see how oxycodone is not just the same in a roundabout way?) until my doctors figure out what to do.

The sad thing is that part of me wants to down the whole bottle to spare everyone the trouble. I'm not even depressed, I'm just at a loss for... any hope that I can be a functioning human being and contribute to the people around me and the society in general if I'm going to be doped up for the rest of my life.

medical marijuana? i've seen it help a LOT with pain. everyone's different, though.

If the pain is localized or worse in particular areas of your body, then I would second the suggestion for the TENS unit. They can be awesome. If you ever do a session of physical therapy or visit a chiropractor, PT's and Chiro's often have them in their offices and you could try theirs out and see if you like it before buying one.

Is neuralgia linked to an inflammatory response in the body? If so, the worse the inflammation gets, the worse the pain will get. My conditions/issues are worsened by inflammation and I found that when I went on an anti-inflammation diet and began taking herbal supplements that reduce inflammation (especially Holy Basil, Tumeric and Green Tea), I had a great response within only about two weeks. It did not completely cure me or anything, but it reduced my pain level to the point it was much more manageable.

This probably goes without saying, but if you are on prescription meds right now, make sure you discuss any herbal supplements you might decide to take with your doctor beforehand, to avoid any possibly dangerous interactions.

I'm sorry I haven't responded, there have been some really helpful replies in this thread, I'm just completely dopey half of the time on this stuff. The other half of the time I'm so itchy and irritable I find myself trying not to scream at complete strangers. Ugh. My brain is just not functioning as it usually does. I'm not going to be able to adjust to this stuff if this doesn't stop soon.