I have been happily isolating (except for partner and some internet contact) since Christmas. Today I spent some time with a friend - only a couple of hours- and I am utterly exhausted. I mean, I feel like I never want to go out anywhere with anyone again. It's like a chuck of flesh was taken from me. I was ok in the moment, but as soon as I left, I was completely drained. I don't feel that way interacting here at WP or with a couple of other email friends and family members. But a face to face encounter, - and nothing "bad" happened or anything like that- God, it's just too much. Can't take it anymore. Never really could, but before I understood my AS condition, I used to push myself to it and then feel bad (about myself). At least I don't feel bad about myself now, just exhausted and like, No, I don't need that at all. Just needed to say this. Thanks.
23 Feb 2012, 9:44 pm
