I don't know whats wrong with me...

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...I wish I had never been born..........my life has been a waste. Everything in my life.....none of it mattered. Im stuck at 24, with absolutely nothing. Everything in my life has been a waste.........I already regret everything about my life...........

I suddenly become depressed on the drop of a dime, and now Im pretty sure I have some serious health condition, because I feel fatigue all the time and I can never fall asleep and have a good nights rest.

I'm really giving it a thought......and I can't help but think about it. I know I'm not myself right now, but then Im not sure I ever was myself or what I am really like. Nothing makes sense, and my whole life is just a blur of letdowns and embarrassment, and missed opportunities.

Im just not comfortable in my skin. f**k. I eat reasonably well, and I try to exercise extensively 3 times a week, but I still feel sluggish and not healthy.

It sounds like you are depressed. That would explain the fatigue regardless of diet and exercise, it would also explain your thoughts on everything not mattering and never being born.
When you are depressed you start to question these things; you will also feel (sometimes inexplicably) extremely down, you won't want to do certain things that you used to enjoy doing, you may hide yourself away from your friends, have thoughts (again sometimes inexplicably) of regret, lose sleep and not see an end in sight. Perhaps you are not 'suddenly become depressed at the drop of a dime', perhaps the depression just never went away in the first place.

Having regrets of things we cannot change in the past can be a dangerous thing to dwell on. Instead of seeing them as regrets perhaps look at them as 'life lessons' and learn from them to improve yourself, that's not new age crap either, that's positive thinking and learning to let go of things that are impossible to change.

I myself have been in a similar situation before, I could not see an end in sight either, but it wasn't until I got to perhaps where you are now that I could use that negative emotion to completely turn my life around (I'm not trying to oversimplify this). I have made previous posts regarding these issues, they are somewhere in The Haven, have a look for them and find some more information from me and others to help you out.

Above all you need to see your Doctor, they can help you figure out what is wrong and diagnose you correctly. Tell him/her how you are feeling and they can recommend a course of action. This is the most important piece of advice I can give you, Doctors are trained to deal with these things and can be an invaluable resource.
In the mean time keep posting and remember you're not alone here.

I agree with Paulie C, you need to see a doctor to be checked out for any possible illnesses that may be contributing to your fatigue, but you also need to discuss your severe depression with the doctor, too. You need to use coping methods to distract yourself from your focus on your problems, and to keep yourself occupied.

- Listen to and/or play music
- Exercise (yes, I know you are all ready doing that one--don't stop)
- Read funny stories
- Get involved with hobbies
- Take courses, either in person or online. Some are free.
- Volunteer with charities--there are people worse off than we are. Volunteering will help show you that and give you the chance to feel better by helping them.
- Join clubs
- Watch funny TV/DVD programs
- Surf the I-net

You can probably think of a few I missed. I know these coping methods work because they help me (a chronic lifelong depressive) a whole lot. It took me a lot of years--decades--to figure out these coping methods for myself. Now I've given you the list without the years long search, so you can start helping yourself to feel better right away. Now see the doctor, and use some of these coping methods.