Lately I have been getting angrier and angrier.
A friend of mine "ratted me out" and exagerated on something that was barely true, and that cost a relationship with another friend. That other friend has also manipulated me, lied, and broke some promises.
My father has been a huge pain. He keeps harassing mom and I, constantly every moment about things, and won't leave us alone.
He frequently goes to my room at 11 PM, telling me to "grow up, get a life, etc." and threatens me during those times too. He does not grasp the concept that I am getting ready for bed, and DO NOT want to be bothered, and definately don't want to be angered while I should be asleep. It does not help, and just makes things worse, and he cannot restrain himself when he's supposed to be in bed? He goes to bed at 10, and knocks at my door when he's supposed to be in bed at 11, sometimes just to tell me to "grow up", and I am very sick of that. He is a horrible parent, and I am tired of him threatening and annoying me at the worst and weirdest times. I have to deal with this almost every day, and it is quite tiresome. It's almost as if he is trying to make me angrier.
And what's worse, he frequently threatens me that he will "kick me out at age 18", when I know full well that I will not survive emotionally having to live on my own. He doesn't care, and he says that way too much.
I'm tired of him threatening me all the time, what he does, does not help. He's now threatening to make me work for my computer time, when I have not done anything to be punished for.
I get out of the house 4 times a week, and I enjoy it. But when I am at home, I need my PS3/Computer time, otherwise I would be very unstable. I have to deal with this monster all the time, and I want freedom from having to deal with someone like him.
And what's humorous, if he does kick me out when I am 18, my mom is going to leave him. She already said that when I am gone, she's gone. He hates how he treats her too, and makes her upset a lot.
Why are people like this? He acts as if he has no sympathy, no self control, and is very self centered.
I know he's autistic, there is no doubt, but the way he behaves, I doubt he has Aspergers, he must have untreated high functioning autism.
My dad had a bad childhood, and was abused by his drug addicted mother, who probably was autistic too. He is an ex alchoholic, but has been sober for 19 years. I don't understand why he still acts like this so much, the man's almost 60.
How am I supposed to deal with this? He drives me nuts, and I am scared that I may end up as arrogant and foolish as he is.
09 Mar 2012, 1:51 pm
