im so lonely...need help/rant

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i know no one thats evan like me, all my friends are relitivel close but still are not apsie's so they dont understand, for the past year ive been my own best friend, every day at school people just piss me off by running at the mouth like verbal diarrhea,they never shut up, i just wont to bet there heads into the ground some times, and the thing that scares the s**t out of me is that im big, football lineman big, and that i could achaly do that and with anger problems that run in the family... all that keeping me fine is being vary good at repressing all most all my emotions. here is where lonelyness comes in. i go to sped school so there no bullying but there are only 40 kids there and 3 girls in the high school. so thanks to that i have never had contact with a girl, the closest i have gotten was walling past the in the hall. all that i wont is a real best friend that is like me. my two best freinds would be considered really good frinds by most but not best, and one now in the army and the other is graduating a 3 mouths and going to collage so there goes my only there friend...and it not better at home. my mom is hyper socal and slowly sliding in to demncha "i think" amd my step dad as SEVERE A.D.H.D. and trust me i have seen some bad ones at my school. my mom being hyper socal was the reason that my dad walked out one dad , because she was not like that when they where young and now it has come out, so my aspie dad could not stand it so he left, but im stuck here... unforchanty me and my aspie dad are to diffrent to help with this. all i wont is some one that understands me. and all of ths is ampliffed by the fact that mentaly im 30 " my parents,tharipis and frinds all say this"and that drive for this is stronger.


so please any advive, suggestions or comments?

it is a cliché, but things do [eventually] get a bit better as one grows older and matriculates into the adult world away from high school. you just have to outlast your high school years. this, too, shall pass.

btw, welcome to wrong planet

It's tough feeling like nobody is like you. Not sure how much help this will be, but I'll try.

Do you have any special interests? If you do, it might be worth seeing if there are any clubs that meet in your area- you'd then have a shot at finding like minded folks. Similarly many areas have support groups for folks with Autism/AS, and some of those have a social basis. Once again, you'd meet folks like you.

As for the anger issues, I've found that the best thing to help control that is exercise. Go to the gym, go running, out on your bike, even set up a punch bag in your house and whale on it. You can work through the negative stuff and give it a release.

Not knowing where you're from makes it impossible to find any more specific help, but google is your friend, groups and clubs usually have websites nowadays, and that's the best way of finding folk you can get along with- for me, it was scifi forums and going to conventions. I made a lot of friends, and even met my partner through doing that.

Hope that helps

Don't feel bad about the no girl contact. That would be a huge challenge for anyone. If you like sports, I'd say get involved with a team of some kind; find friends through shared interests. And don't lose touch with your current ones, use email, FB, chat to mantain those relationships.

And make sure you can love somebody back before you find someone to love you. Get yourself straightened out, don't expect someone else's love to do that for you. Good luck with everything, and welcome to WP. Stay in touch.

thanks

im 16 but dont say that in normal to feel this at that age but the thing is i ran throught puberty and was done by 15 for the most part, and if we just had a conversation and did not know my age you would think in 20-21. im years ahead emotanally. and all this is backed up by my tharipist, but she NT so she cant help here. so take that in to constderation