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hartzofspace
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11 Nov 2006, 6:15 pm

I've had a killer headache for four days, that is finally backing off, my computer is acting insane and incooperative, and I feel horribly, dreadfully alone. Worse, I feel hyper sensitive and paranoid. For example. I went out to check my mail box. I saw my next door neighbor, and stopped to say hi. Then I asked her a question about a small tree that's growing by my house, since she is the self proclaimed "green person" in our neighborhood. Then I started to congratulate her on getting a piece written up in the local paper. and she kinda of said, "Yeah, I'm just getting back from (some event) and I have to shower." Now, I've had this kind of brush off before, when I've talked too much, or had difficulty knowing when to end a casual conversation. SO I immediately thought, I must have made her sick and tired of me already, and I've only lived here for about four months :cry: I'm sick and tired of trying to figure out people, and of my own hypersensitivity, ect. I felt slapped in the face, and brushed off, as if I were an annoying bug. Yet I've seen her take time to talk to the other neighbors, extensively. Looks like I've stumbled onto another clique. I just wish it didn't hurt so much. There's also the assumption that a loner type like me is desperate for company, and is sure to become a nuisance. I feel so lost and alone.


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12 Nov 2006, 2:54 pm

hartzofspace wrote:
I've had a killer headache for four days, that is finally backing off, my computer is acting insane and incooperative, and I feel horribly, dreadfully alone. Worse, I feel hyper sensitive and paranoid. For example. I went out to check my mail box. I saw my next door neighbor, and stopped to say hi. Then I asked her a question about a small tree that's growing by my house, since she is the self proclaimed "green person" in our neighborhood. Then I started to congratulate her on getting a piece written up in the local paper. and she kinda of said, "Yeah, I'm just getting back from (some event) and I have to shower." Now, I've had this kind of brush off before, when I've talked too much, or had difficulty knowing when to end a casual conversation. SO I immediately thought, I must have made her sick and tired of me already, and I've only lived here for about four months :cry: I'm sick and tired of trying to figure out people, and of my own hypersensitivity, ect. I felt slapped in the face, and brushed off, as if I were an annoying bug. Yet I've seen her take time to talk to the other neighbors, extensively. Looks like I've stumbled onto another clique. I just wish it didn't hurt so much. There's also the assumption that a loner type like me is desperate for company, and is sure to become a nuisance. I feel so lost and alone.


i often dread of feeling alone, like you have explained, though i am only twelve, i may have a suggestion, when i feel loney, and/or uncared for, i talk to a relative, try calling your parents, or aunt, or uncle, cousin ect. if that doesn't help, ask if you could stay for a weekend or something... again, no need to trust me, for i have never felt the exact way you do. talking/being with relatives always helps, because they know you best, and they know how to make you feel better, and how not to...


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12 Nov 2006, 3:04 pm

hartzofspace wrote:
I've had a killer headache for four days, that is finally backing off, my computer is acting insane and incooperative, and I feel horribly, dreadfully alone. Worse, I feel hyper sensitive and paranoid. For example. I went out to check my mail box. I saw my next door neighbor, and stopped to say hi. Then I asked her a question about a small tree that's growing by my house, since she is the self proclaimed "green person" in our neighborhood. Then I started to congratulate her on getting a piece written up in the local paper. and she kinda of said, "Yeah, I'm just getting back from (some event) and I have to shower." Now, I've had this kind of brush off before, when I've talked too much, or had difficulty knowing when to end a casual conversation. SO I immediately thought, I must have made her sick and tired of me already, and I've only lived here for about four months :cry: I'm sick and tired of trying to figure out people, and of my own hypersensitivity, ect. I felt slapped in the face, and brushed off, as if I were an annoying bug. Yet I've seen her take time to talk to the other neighbors, extensively. Looks like I've stumbled onto another clique. I just wish it didn't hurt so much. There's also the assumption that a loner type like me is desperate for company, and is sure to become a nuisance. I feel so lost and alone.


At least you have WP to turn to! I'm not good at comforting people, but just remember that people here at the planet are always gonna help at some level or another. I experience alot of social problems myself and I only have one friend who I suspect has Aspergers like me. I reccomend that you get into group therapy, which filter out your social quirks.


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