The past two weeks have been bad.

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Lots of depression. trouble with friends, people getting mad at me, falling behind in classes. And now I need a new car.

Last weekend, some f*****g idiot hit me while I was driving and he left the scene. So after taking my car in they say it costs more to repair than what the car is worth, so it's considered totaled. Now I need a new car, and my family is going to try and pay for it. I wish that I could help pay for it, but I don't have a job. I wish I could have a job and be full-time in school at the same time like a normal person. The last job I had was part-time and even that was depressing me and making me crazy, and that was with only taking one class at school. Now I'm going to school full-time; four classes, including trying to learn a new language, tons of studying and homework, psychology club, and I think I might have to eventually go to tutoring.

I just feel like a gigantic burden, sucking money from my family. I feel like my family thinks I'm lazy for not having a job. It's only been a little more than a year since I got diagnosed, but even so, I don't think they fully understand what I go through.

I know that my mom's boyfriend is going to give me lots of s**t for this. He's always given me s**t for not having a job and thinks I'm just f*****g lazy. He's known me for about 16 years. Nevertheless, he's probably the person who would understand my problems the least. I know he hates whenever my mom spends money on me, except for like birthday and Christmas presents. The only good thing that came out of my mom meeting him was my half-sister, and my two friends that I met in elementary school when my mom and I moved in with him when I was little.

I often wonder what the point is of me trying to do anything. I'm not meant for this world. I can barely function in it sometimes. I'm just a giant leech. I contribute nothing.

1. You need to concentrate on school right now. Once that's over, then you can get a job and pay your mom.

2. Write a note to that effect to give your mom when she pays for the replacement vehicle.

3. Make sure mom's bf knows about both 1 & 2.

4. If he still gives you grief about it, tell him he gets parental complaining rights when he himself mans up, and actually marries your mom, and not before. Until then only your mom has those rights. God, 16 years plus a kid of his own with her, and he still hasn't manned up enough to marry her! What is he waiting for--an invitation engraved in gold to his own wedding?

Warning! #4 is bound to tick mom's bf off big time, so be careful and make sure mom is around at the time.

Good luck with your schooling and later job hunting.