An email therapist is not a good way to get help. Every state has places you can go for free or low cost therapy sessions, usually on a county basis. Check the government pages in the local phone book under mental health, or call the welfare office and they can get you the number. If you don't have a local phone book, look up your state and county government offices online, and once at the site, do a site search for mental health.
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If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer.
Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured, or far away.--Henry David Thoreau