Apology

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No doubt you've seen my very negative posts and I just wanted to say sorry and explain my actions.

I've been feeling VERY suicidal over the past few days and it has gotten to the point where I've done something stupid and ordered a hell load of pills off ebay with the intention of killing myself. I did this during my lowest point in life last night and now I realize how stupid it was of me to do it. I doubt I'll be able to cancel those orders but honestly I think that's a good thing as it'll remind me not to do such a stupid thing in future. I am going to do something about this and I'm going to pull myself together too.

I just wanted to say sorry to you all. Not trying to justify my childishness, just explaining it.

You didn't bother me. I go through the same s**t each month for a couple of days. I guess I should be called an occasional bipolar sufferer, but the breakdowns really have a cause they don't just come random. But then again barking about it and getting all evil and psychopathic about it really helps me recover from it, like letting it all go. Sometimes you have to be a negativist to get over your negativity. Throw away those pills will you! Your one of the most pleasant members on this board. I always enjoy reading your posts, even when they're negative.

can i have your pills then? i may need them someday.

Better out than in. Ebay for drugs :/ Only thing that flashed through my mind they is, other people getting they drugs from ebay lol. As the product might not be what it says it is.

They let ebay sell drugs?. Mind you I know they was a news part on knifes.

Sorry to hear you've been feeling that bad, I've had some spells like that myself recently. I hope you start to feel better soon.

I'm sorry that you've been feeling so low, and I hope that you feel better soon. I also hope you'll consider seeking help, if you feel that would be helpful to you.

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I'm sorry you've been feeling so poorly. I had noticed your posts, but things like that never upset me. I just assume the person saying such things feels they want to be heard for one reason or another.

I've actually posted similar, yet cryptic, comments here on wp lately, but they are just emotions of distress. If I were going to commence my death, nobody would know. I'm not suicidal though, as I feel I have responsibilities no matter how strange they are. Strange in that, I don't know if others would deem them things to fight on for as they aren't for myself .

Pills are a nasty thing though... I would not try taking pills. When I was a teenager, I took a lot of pills... About the amount I thought would be fatal. Anyway, not enough and just left me severely uncomfortable. My parents found me and rushed me to the emergency room, where they had me drink a putrid charcoal cocktail... and I was shaky and uncomfortable for days >_>

Hello stranger on the internet. I'm sorry you have felt so low.

You are such a precious life. Go celebrate the sunshine.

I've been taking my shoes off and enjoying the lovely feeling of grass on bare feet in sunshine,
airs the smelly trainers out too

destroy the pills

I saw your posts and think I commented on one of them in the Random forum. I'm glad you aren't really going to do anything. Sometimes you get overwhelmed and just have to vent and get it out. I understand.

What did you buy from ebay? I'd be careful with that because they might not be what they say they are. I've thought about buying meds or drugs if you will, online especially because it costs more to go to the doctor and I know exactly what scripts I need so it would be cheaper online, but I'm afraid that what I get will look like what I want but it won't be it. I actually saw a tv show where the woman bought a script online for diet pills and they weren't the real thing and they killed her liver. It was a drama, but ever since then I've been afraid that something like that would happen.

I'm glad you're feeling better

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sorry to hear you have been suicidal. i have felt that way at times, myself. so i do know how bad it can get.

something to keep in mind is that you can edit your posts for almost 7 days. that way you can remove things that you feel have crossed a line.