I've managed to move out, become somewhat autonomous, and manage to pay bills rent, etc using my "home business" and so forth as income. I am reluctant to become employed elsewhere for fear of being fired like I was from my last job. I have $50,000 in medical bills which practically crushed my access to a credit line. Now I have only $1000 credit limit for my company - which, for anyone trying to sustain an inventory and a cashflow, is nearly impossible. I am so frustrated with it. I am so frustrated with working all day, and having almost nothing to show for it. I am frustrated with not being able to unfold my business plan, one which will keep me from having to use Social Security, or rely on other people. Today I am just so pissed off at this society for doing this to me. I'm high-functioning enough to do all of this, but because of my bloody heart condition and a fraudulent insurer, my credit is dismal. It keeps me from having freedom. It's like looking at it through glass. I know how to get it, I just don't have the resources to do so. Because no law protects people like me.
+ My merchant service fees, compliance fees, eBay fees, ALL KINDS OF FEES have gone up substantially the last 2 years. Every time I make some profit, one of my several "outlets" just scoops it up as a service fee. I hate this.
It's just so absurd. The only thing standing in my way are the consequences of my health condition. And I don't want to lose what I have. It was so hard to get here, and very stressful to stay here. Very stressful watching other people walk freely where I struggle. I bloody hate it.
09 Apr 2012, 10:44 am
