A new hope turned sour

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I've started going back to Stepping Stones with hopes of a new beginning and that things will be more better for me there. I've been going for a couple of weeks now. I've had a conflict with a member with an impulsive personality who's also a drug dealer. The only two staff workers who were working were my ex contact worker and a young guy who thinks that autism should be cured. I told my ex contact worker that I was having conflicts with that one girl and she told me to write a letter for her to give to that character. I did that and I asked her to phone me to tell me how the conversation went with that troublemaker. Of course Rhonda took her side and told me that I needed to toughen up and put back some of that shell that I had as a Punker. I told her over the phone, "In other words, you want me to be more of a b***h." implying that she wanted me to be more like her and the typical young woman. I go back to that clubhouse for something sour like that to happen and I feel jaded now, because I can't stand when something so good turns out to be a nightmare faster than I can say, "I'm out of here!"

Though I feel jaded, I'm not going back to spiking my hair. I've come too far.

The reason I'm saying all this now, is because I've been holding it in and I didn't want to make a spectacle of myself in The Haven like I have the past two times that I've made a thread.

Keep being yourself, CockneyRebel. If you can stay out of the way of the member with the impulsive personality, keep going to the clubhouse and see what happens next ... if in the end it turns out to be more harmful for you to keep going, you can always stop again.