Boy do I feel like s**t today

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I have my good days and bad days, and in recent years I've been doing a lot better, but boy do I feel like s**t today. Life has become much more tolerable over the years and I'm sure it will become more tolerable as time goes on, but it's just really hard to imagine it actually getting any better right now. Sure I'll become more used to it and it probably won't bother me as much, but I'd always hoped that maybe one day I'd actually be happy instead of just being not depressed enough to blow my brains out. The enormous amount of stupidity and selfishness surrounding me just makes me want to go be a hermit in the mountains and never come in contact with another human being again. Deep down I really don't want to be alone, but it'd be better than being around all these jackasses I have to deal with on a daily basis. And what makes it all worse is that life seems to come so much easier to these torpid jackasses. If only I had a million dollars I'd build a totally self sufficient house in the mountains somewhere and spend my days raising pigs and either sheep or goats and growing vegetables. Unfortunately, that's not going to happen so I've just got to keep from putting a bullet in my head for the next day or two and I'm sure I'll feel better. I really wish allergy season would end already because this damn tree pollen really exacerbates my depression.

I hear you... It gets really old repeating myself to 'management' because they don't 'get' the thing they're 'managing' and I see the pitfalls months (sometimes years) before they do. Keep working on yourself to make your own niche in life - it'll happen.
Don't give in and do yourself in - instead find a safe haven of people that just accept you.


I can't say I haven't felt just like you describe.. I have. It doesn't bother me that much that I end up doing most of the work but watching inept idiots rise through the company is really annoying. Such is life... Allergies can be tamed by a variety of medications - the low tech netti pot works wonders for me.
I wish I had an answer for you that didn't amount to: keep working on yourself and find a nich you're happy in.
Good luck!

I know what you mean. Whenever I come across somebody that's depressed it just reminds me of days like today or worse and I don't want anybody to have to feel that way so I'll do what I can to try and make them feel better, but I usually can't come up with much more myself. Thanks for trying, though. I know I'll feel better by this weekend at least; I've just got to wait it out.