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I visited family yesterday evening. My aunt commented that Kristen Stewart(actress) is the daughter of Jon Stewart(Daily Show) and I happened to once read the random bit of trivia that her dad's name is John Stewart, but he works in television and is far from famous. I told my aunt this, and she and her sixteen year old daughter both started screaming that he was indeed Jon Stewart of the Daily Show, and when I looked it up they proceeded to grab their belongings and march out of the house in unison like a couple of morons. They are, at best, people I have never felt more than familiar with, there is no closeness or love shared between us but they've managed to make me feel alienated within my family as the one person I am close to absolutely loathes the tension and fighting.

I do not logically think I am at fault but to most of my family they are far more important than I in terms of being at family events and the natural inclination is to avoid me while singing their praises.

Obviously I have a terrible family. But I only have a few friends and none live nearby, and we all know it's not simple to make new friends and these things take time and basically... I'm alone save for that one person. I won't see my best friend for another ten months and he isn't speaking to me as far as I can tell but he hasn't said why.

There is more to it but this really brought it to my attention.

The problem really is that left to my own devices with only a texting buddy and no one to even phone and chat with, I tend to take these issues and convert them to my eating disorder... and I'm somewhat blue as I realize I probably am going to be eating very little and working out insanely for the next ten months or so. I haven't got a clue how I'll manage not to fall into the abyss this time. Lucky I don't have health insurance or treatment options, I really will be going it on my own this time.

Eating disorders are ego-syntonic which may make it very clear why I have no issue with my eating disorder and I much prefer to keep it, and for years I've maintained a decent enough measure of health that I've not collapsed dead.

However even I can admit that when it's bad, it's tremendously bad, emotionally, and there's no escaping that aspect.

What has me slightly feeling sadness isn't that I wish for health and fattening meals, it's that I don't have anybody I can talk to. It's one thing to post publicly on a forum but I don't even know anyone online well enough to send a PM and ask for advice or just see how they're doing.

That's just... odd.

Your family situations sounds very familiar to me. My emotional well-being/feelings aren't really considered by my family. Most of them think I don't really have feelings because my facial expression is very neutral. I have a lot of dramatic people in my family who like people to think they're in intense emotional/physical pain. So, it can be hard to get any attention by words alone.

Eating disorders are not fun, and some people can be so very cruel about them. My partner's friend has anorexia, and she has for a long time. She's trying to get better, but as a result her energy levels are really low and she doesn't go out very much at all. She has a 'friend' who is less than sympathetic, and whenever she can't come out because she's tired the conversation goes like this
Mean friend: 'Well you wouldn't be tired if you'd just eat'
Sick friend: 'It's not as simple as that'
Mean friend: 'Rubbish, I eat everyday.'

People seem to fundamentally misunderstand eating disorders.

If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me. I know you don't know me, but we could be like, PM-pen-palls.

This probably sounds ridiculous but I did a little dance when I saw your post and almost dropped my phone. It's even more ridiculous because I was in line at the grocery store when I pulled up the page on my phone. I want to be your PM pen pal! I'm so glad you posted that, it made my day. My phone is acting all weird, but later I intend to reply to the rest of your post, I am full of glee at the moment though!