I wish I wasn't alive.

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I'm sorry, but I feel like sharing my misery, and I hope some people can help me feel a little better. I hate myself so much because I'm worth nothing, and I want to kill myself, but I know I'd probably go to Hell if it exists. I hate how I latch on to anyone who shows me the least bit of attention because I'm so lonely. I'm sorry if I offend anyone, I just needed to get that out.

I'm not the person who can help you or can get you feel better but I'll reply to your post.

You're not the only person here who is lonely and feel bad with that, thinking about killing yourself is not a solution. It may take a lots of time but sometime you will be happy because you will learn how to live and deal with your problems.

I'm just beginning to understand how life is working and it still complicated often. You must find goals and passions.

You should know what is making you feel bad and ask for help if you don't know how to deal with that.

If you need to talk, we will listen to you.

Take care !

Thanks.

I feel very lonely, but I chose to live.

I was going to write a response, but got scared of saying the wrong thing. When I talk about my sensitive issues, people tend to come off as a**holes to me. I imagine I'd likely do the same to you! I do care, though. I don't want to sound cliche, either; what I say is sincere.

Yeah my guess its from a distorted view of your world. You mentioned you want
to live in other places yet the Bay area is one of the best places to live in America.

My opinion is constant thoughts of suicide needs to be treated with meds. But you being a young teen thats problematic.

Are there situational things your not telling us? Like I see you mention "Tim" in many other posts as if we know who that it. Is he an internet friend or a friend that moved away?

Hey Starbuline

I understand lonely.

I'm alone..

Only finding more and more connections through music, its become a goal, and a perfect release of love and hate.

Take care, killing yourself, I've been there many times, for me it was a "f**k you everything!" feeling... or "i f*ckn hate myself!" in a manner of speaking. Excuse me if that was rude.

Nowdays its "Holy sh*t I've got so much to do!"

The key I think is finding, knowing, or seeing something you MUST do, something in which you can pour all your love and emotions.

For me its music, its also becoming knowledge. It could be anything, the beauty is the infinate possibilities.

I'm truly sorry to be so over-enthusiastic on this post. I'm in a very joyous mood today.

Love the opinions and thoughts of everyone of you.

Don't kill yourself, stay and talk about anything and everything!

u'll get through it, as the life of brian said, 'always look on the bright side of life'

I can totally understand how you are feeling right now. I have been doing nothing for about 5 days, no schoolwork, no class. Just staying in my apartment feeling my life amount to nothing.

If I recall correctly, he is an Internet friend. I think I know more details based on what else I've seen on WP posts, but it wouldn't be right for me to elaborate further. Don't know if Starbuline's current worries have anything to do with him though...

Hmm, we all probably feel alone. I felt so miserable this morning. I woke up, felt totally alone, I found out my car inspection expired so I need to do that again (more money) which made me severely angry. I was losing it and the worst part was I had no one to talk to about it.

Now, its mid-afternoon and I feel a lot better. What changed? Nothing, I went and remedied the car thing and am back on track. The thought of my loneliness drifted away, especially with the car issue (it replaced the thought). Now, I'm just looking forward to home.

My point? I'm 24 and only the last 1-2 years been able to pull myself up. I have probably as much as you in terms of relationships with anyone. The friends I have I wouldn't trade for anything but I only have a few (I couldnt handle more).

Except who you are. Except it. After that, go with it. Get into a hobby you like and perfect it. Learn another language. Always keep in the back of your mind that you can succeed and WILL succeed with whatever interest/hobby you take up. Do not listen to people who tell you who you are, you do that yourself and learn to live with yourself.

I wish I could tell you some quick 'solution' but unfortunately, there isnt one. I can provide certain paths to help you help yourself but asides from that. If interested, let me know. I just know a 'strong' mind is a 'capable' mind, one that creates but does not follow blindly.

Been feeling shite like this recently, hopefully it gets better.

Thank you guys for replying. You've all helped me feel better. I'm genuinely happy that you gave me advice.

So...


Many people on these forums help people simply to help, without EXPECTING a result but simply learning over time that wisdom can help anyone no matter how well you know them in more ways than those sharing can actually comprehend.

This effectively proves not all men are after sex, power and violence.

Sorry to bring this up here, but I'm sick of hearing about these 3 as my driving forces, oh and slackness.

Yes I post here because I learn lots, because I can share lots.. Sex isn't important to me, I only want power over my own will, and my anger is released towards certain issues now, as a positive thing.

So though I know it wasn't posted here, let us try stop calling men one thing and women another..

I'm sure you'll always find someone that doesn't fit into the categories, they're not broken, you just don't understand them.

I can tell you guys who Tim is, if that's okay with you (and Star, of course).