Should I go and kill myself?

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18 Jun 2012, 4:44 am

I just do.
I failed school with 30 IB Points as prediction because my teachers thought I cheated in my exams.
I get verbally and physically abused at every day,
Now I feel as if I want to kill myself to end all of my suffering.
DO you think it's worth it?
I don't know if my dreams to Ivy League are worth it now.



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18 Jun 2012, 4:52 am

abhma13 wrote:
I just do.
I failed school with 30 IB Points as prediction because my teachers thought I cheated in my exams.
I get verbally and physically abused at every day,
Now I feel as if I want to kill myself to end all of my suffering.
DO you think it's worth it?
I don't know if my dreams to Ivy League are worth it now.


I don't think it's worth it. Stick it out a little longer.

Besides, you're still too young to know what you're life could turn out to be. And it could turn out pretty good, but you wouldn't know unless you actually live. Suck it up and hang in there.



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18 Jun 2012, 5:54 am

If you hang in there and do what you can to make your life a little better, I promise it will get better, even if it turns out to be something completely different. It just takes time, a little bit of work and taking advantage of any opportunities you get, no matter how small. Perhaps you should also take advantage of any counselling or social work services you can find. I've done that before and it helps a lot.



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18 Jun 2012, 6:27 am

Don't kill yourself. If you can try and hang on a little longer, it will get better. I've felt the way you do, and acted upon my feelings. I'm so glad I wasn't successful because my life has changed in ways I couldn't have imagined and all for the better. If we can help you here then please let just ask. If you can access counselling or speak to your GP that might be a good idea.



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18 Jun 2012, 8:50 am

Everything in life is temporary. It doesn't feel like it in the moment, but it will pass. I suffered through years of bullying and abuse, but I am happy I'm still here now. It will pass. You are a wonderful beautiful human being. Remember that and keep going. The bad stuff will pass.



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18 Jun 2012, 9:43 am

Don't kill yourself.

Life gets way better after high school (that's what you're in right?).

Margaret Cho's argument about bullying really resonated with me: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/margaret- ... 94023.html

I dropped out of high school because I was failing since 9th grade. My life sucked horribly. People sexually harassed me at school and bullied me.

But then, I went back to college and realized that High School is just hell. I don't really think that Ivy League schools are the only schools worth attending. You can find intelligent professors and enriching learning material in most all the colleges, even if attendance doesn't come with the same prestige.



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18 Jun 2012, 9:45 am

abhma13 wrote:
I get verbally and physically abused at every day,


Oh--I assumed that you meant bullying when you wrote this, but you could also be talking about domestic or family abuse.

I'm so sorry you get abused, that really does cut one's self esteem down.

Remember that abuse is never the target's fault--and it says oceans about the abusers, and nothing about you.

Can you talk to a school counselor about the abuse? Or a doctor?



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18 Jun 2012, 2:11 pm

Don't kill yourself. Things will get better. You just have to do your best and hang in there. Look at a funny movie or seek out some friends.



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18 Jun 2012, 2:54 pm

In the other threads you've posted on this; you said it was just predicted scores that where lower than what you got on the beginning test and you did well on the tests.



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18 Jun 2012, 3:35 pm

abhma13 wrote:
I just do.
I failed school with 30 IB Points as prediction because my teachers thought I cheated in my exams.
I get verbally and physically abused at every day,
Now I feel as if I want to kill myself to end all of my suffering.
DO you think it's worth it?
I don't know if my dreams to Ivy League are worth it now.

First of all, how old are you? Are you in high school?


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18 Jun 2012, 5:12 pm

abhma13 wrote:
I just do.
I failed school with 30 IB Points as prediction because my teachers thought I cheated in my exams.
I get verbally and physically abused at every day,
Now I feel as if I want to kill myself to end all of my suffering.
DO you think it's worth it?
I don't know if my dreams to Ivy League are worth it now.


I'm so glad I didn't have a rich family. I NEVER could have lived up to the expectations of super-wealthy parents. You MUST get a 4.6 GPA, you MUST go to Harvard, you MUST graduate at the top of your class in everything, and (the new one) you MUST make a billion dollars a year as a hedge fund manager on Wall Street. :roll: :roll: IB is International Baccalaureate, a special program in American high schools for the kids of rich people, and once you're in it's full force with the pressure. I assume that's the situation. I seem to remember an Academic Decathlon team that got such high scores that they were disqualified for "cheating". :roll: Time to be yourself, and not somebody someone else wants you to be.



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18 Jun 2012, 5:17 pm

Hell no.


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18 Jun 2012, 5:46 pm

Of course you shouldn't kill yourself, but I understand feeling that way. I mean my situation and yours are pretty different I mean I don't even know what Ivy league or whatever is. But hey are there any other things you might like to do? sometimes you have to try and be open to other options though it can be easier said than done...but sometimes getting stuck on one idea can make you feel more trapped and more down on yourself if it doesn't work out...so maybe try thinking about other things you might like to do.

I could go on about how others have it worse and how I think even I might, but that does no good...as it doesn't change the pain you are in. Sometimes that can make it worse as you may wonder why you can't just be happy when you are better off than some others. Well I imagine wealth cannot buy happiness, so you sort of have to find something you enjoy...sorry I can't be of more help, I am trying to figure out what it is I really want in life but I don't even really know.


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19 Jun 2012, 1:22 am

No.
Certainly not just yet.
Most likely, in this entire cosmos, you are the only being who is identical to you. How could you justify terminating a life system which is that unique. If you just wait a number of decades, Nature will handle it for you. In the order of things, several decades is less than a blink.



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19 Jun 2012, 10:59 am

No. You can escape and find a safe place, and you deserve to be free from abuse. If you were unfairly judged as a cheater, perhaps you can fight that, and if you can you should, not only for your own sake but for the others who might be victimized. It is possible for an aspie to have a good life. It might not be possible to make all NTs like you or treat you fairly, but the older you get the easier it gets to avoid those who refuse to do so.