I'm very bitter about an incident relating to my father.
The thing is, this incident never happened...
I know it never happened. It might have happened in a dream maybe, but the thing is I remember being beaten and sexually harassed by my father as if it were yesterday.
The thing is, I know for a fact that's not the kind of thing he do, but somewhere deep in my consciousness, buried alongside my memories from early childhood, I see it, hear it, feel it, and I despise the man as a result.
I need advice on how to deal with this?
I'm confused and unsure about what really happened or didn't happen (in fact I don't think it did but I still *remember* it), and it affects me nonetheless.