Universal hardship

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Experiences will strengthen you but they will also strip away parts of you...I have lost something with becoming aware of the world that I can't quite explain but it makes it so much harder to be happy.

We have come this far as a species but overall life is made harder than it should be, mostly from socializing. We should have more understanding of one another on the planet...

Is it odd that I am strong on the outside but rather hollow inside? It doesn't make much sense to me, all I have left these days it seems is some strong convictions and musical ability, and it doesn't feel like enough.

I can't seem to identify the emotion I'm feeling as I'm writing this...maybe it's disappointment with life. I have had many disappointments...particularly regarding friendship and family. I was sheltered by my mother at a young age and had to learn everything myself and with a mentor and it seems most simply remain "in the dark" their whole lives. Ironically the light they metaphorically see is better than exiting the darkness.

Maybe I'm just moping or repressing myself too much, seems I am forcing myself to be someone completely different to prove something but I don't know what. I just want to feel whole for once...

Sorry for any incoherentness, I am in an extremely emotional state.

Thanks for sharing. I wish you well.

I'm not exactly sure what you are going through right now, but I can relate to acting strong on the outside, but feeling empty inside.

Well there are remnants of a once strong depression caused by self neglect in search of finding meaning in life...that seems to be what it is now that I've been able to sleep on it.

Hate feeling weak and powerless to my past.