I don't know what to do! Since going back to school my interest has gone mad at first it just didn't matter to me at all so I thought I must be going through the switch onto another thing. Then out of know where for a day it was fully on my mind and back to normal but disappeare the following day again. Then something different happened again. Last week I had a Friday- Saturday interest buzz and the day before it was filtering into my head a little more than it had been. Then this week the buzz started on Saturday and I had a moderate amount of interest (it was in my head but I had no real want to do anything about it) on Wednesday. This mornin I was fine but now I'm back to not really wanting to engage in it at all, or anything for that matter. Is this really all down to school? I don't get this I really don't, when I'm at school in fine but somehow I get this! I've gone through so much this year- its amazing to think I haven't been 100% happy since I realised something was wrong in january. I ditn know hat to do and my mum wants me to speak to two psychologists! I can barely handle one. I'm freaking out so much. I really want to feel like I'm back to normal somehow although what I've learned this year means I wont ever be my idea of normal ever again.
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~Pixie~
