and here comes the depression

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i'm not doing well, it hits so quickly. i'm tired of not being able to do anything. i don't want to have to be here, be a part of this pointless existance. i just wish i could find a way to make puting up with life more tolerable. i don't want to talk to anyone with my voice, i can't right now. i don't want to be a disapointment to everybody. i have the intrusive thoughts of a violent nature and then i think that i'll somehow make bad things happen. the noises are too loud, people everywhere making as much noise as they can. i can't go to class, i don't want to leave the house. i'm supposed to be doing better. i'm supposed to be looking after myself so my parents don't have to. they don't feel like my parents any more, almost like strangers. i am disgusted by myfiance, i don't want him to touch me. i'm not going back to a hospital, ever. if i tell anyone that is where i'll go.

if you can't go to class, you'll need a doc's note or you'll face bad grades or worse. like it or not, you're going to need help. you haven't said anything in your post that makes me think hospital would necessarily be part of that help. perhaps a med adjustment and/or someone understanding to talk to would benefit you.