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06 Oct 2012, 8:54 pm

Because I'm running out of ways to describe the craziness, aka Southern Gothic theme, that is in my life. It's gotten so to the point that if I didn't know me and live this, that even I would think I was making this shinola up! But, unfortunately, it's real.

Now, last night my two boys got in a knock down drag out fight at my crazy chair-ridden MIL's house and nobody broke up the fight even though there were four other grown men there. They just let it go till both boys tired out. This was not just usual sibling nonsense of halfway hard arm punching and wresteling. This involved broken facial bones, concussions, blood, and many many bruises. They went to the ER and are fine, but neither would leave. The older is living there now and the younger said h*ll no, he's not going anywhere. So, they ignored each other all day today. I do not know how that will end tonight, when the older boy gets to drinking again and him and his friend want to mess with the younger boy again. (My boys are 23 and 17, so they aren't kids)

My Mother has gotten involved. She has (oh joy!) Borderline Personality Disorder and PLUS, now that she's as old as she is, she's got the old lady crazy as a sh*thouse rat thing going on too, so all she does is fan the flames. She's got to call them up every few hours and start something. None of them will listen to me and not listen to her and just block her number or anything. They eat that sh*t up like it's water in the Arabian desert or something.

Now, my husbands there, their daddy. He's half drunk in the mornings and sh*tfaced drunk by dark, so he's no help.

Then, on top of it all, I get a call from you know who. You know who says "Come over" I say I can't cause I'm the only one here with my youngest (16) and she's not feeling good, plus I don't know what's gonna happen tonight at the lake. Then you know who throws a little temper fit on the phone and hangs up and shows up drunker than Cooter Brown at my house! Then after getting rid of you know who, I get another call from my Mother informing me that somehow or other all this sh*t is my fault.

I just hung up on her. She's nuts and doesn't know a g*dd*mned thing she's talking about! I am NOT taking this to heart or any blame for this. Trust me on that. I'm just sick of all their sh*t and wish they would all grow the f*ck up and act like normal g*ddamned human beings for a change!

I swear to God, one day I'll end up in prison over that one dope ho who started all this crap and caused this. I know I will, it's just a matter of time. My only hope is she gets caught with her shake and bake before I lose control of my temper and stop putting my family's welfare first.


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08 Oct 2012, 2:54 am

There are times in life when I realize that it could be worse than perpetual loneliness. Reading this post has made me realize that this is one of those times. As far as I am concerned, there are few worse things for an aspie to deal with than a borderline, and you have my sincerest condolences.


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08 Oct 2012, 4:22 am

outofplace wrote:
There are times in life when I realize that it could be worse than perpetual loneliness. Reading this post has made me realize that this is one of those times. As far as I am concerned, there are few worse things for an aspie to deal with than a borderline, and you have my sincerest condolences.


F*ck. According to my psychiatrist I am Aspie AND Borderline. So I have to f*cking deal with myself! I'm screwed then...

(I dispute the Borderline label because the only part I identify with is the self-harm and I think they just thought "self-harm = borderline")


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08 Oct 2012, 5:12 am

YellowBanana wrote:
outofplace wrote:
There are times in life when I realize that it could be worse than perpetual loneliness. Reading this post has made me realize that this is one of those times. As far as I am concerned, there are few worse things for an aspie to deal with than a borderline, and you have my sincerest condolences.


F*ck. According to my psychiatrist I am Aspie AND Borderline. So I have to f*cking deal with myself! I'm screwed then...

(I dispute the Borderline label because the only part I identify with is the self-harm and I think they just thought "self-harm = borderline")


Sorry... I didn't mean to be hurtful. My meaning was basically that borderlines need constant attention from others and aspies/auties need their alone time. Thus, it is very difficult for an aspie to deal with a borderline because they won't give them space and time to process life. At least that has been my personal experience with a friend of mine that I strongly suspect is borderline. For example, when I refused to go to his house and sit with him while he was drunk, he came to my house, entered without permission and proceeded to scream at me for not doing his bidding. At that point, I had no choice but to do something unnatural for me and scream back. Even now, several months later, he will still call me 10x a day (not an exaggeration!) because he has no tolerance of alone time. Now that he has moved out of state, I have been able to exercise the option of not answering without fear of him showing up on my doorstep.

As to your situation, it sounds more like depression than borderline if that is your only symptom. Many times, people self harm because of either self loathing or as a cry for help. Thus, self-harm alone does not sound like a good reason for that Dx to me. After all, the self hate could just be a result of poor treatment by others due to the Asperger's and different people react differently to being treated poorly by others. While borderline is a typical outcome from a lifetime of abuse, I don't think it is always the case. For what it's worth, I have known people who self-harmed and did not seem like borderlines to me.


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08 Oct 2012, 1:18 pm

OliveOilMom wrote:
Because I'm running out of ways to describe the craziness, aka Southern Gothic theme, that is in my life. It's gotten so to the point that if I didn't know me and live this, that even I would think I was making this shinola up! But, unfortunately, it's real.

Now, last night my two boys got in a knock down drag out fight at my crazy chair-ridden MIL's house and nobody broke up the fight even though there were four other grown men there. They just let it go till both boys tired out. This was not just usual sibling nonsense of halfway hard arm punching and wresteling. This involved broken facial bones, concussions, blood, and many many bruises. They went to the ER and are fine, but neither would leave. The older is living there now and the younger said h*ll no, he's not going anywhere. So, they ignored each other all day today. I do not know how that will end tonight, when the older boy gets to drinking again and him and his friend want to mess with the younger boy again. (My boys are 23 and 17, so they aren't kids)

My Mother has gotten involved. She has (oh joy!) Borderline Personality Disorder and PLUS, now that she's as old as she is, she's got the old lady crazy as a sh*thouse rat thing going on too, so all she does is fan the flames. She's got to call them up every few hours and start something. None of them will listen to me and not listen to her and just block her number or anything. They eat that sh*t up like it's water in the Arabian desert or something.

Now, my husbands there, their daddy. He's half drunk in the mornings and sh*tfaced drunk by dark, so he's no help.

Then, on top of it all, I get a call from you know who. You know who says "Come over" I say I can't cause I'm the only one here with my youngest (16) and she's not feeling good, plus I don't know what's gonna happen tonight at the lake. Then you know who throws a little temper fit on the phone and hangs up and shows up drunker than Cooter Brown at my house! Then after getting rid of you know who, I get another call from my Mother informing me that somehow or other all this sh*t is my fault.

I just hung up on her. She's nuts and doesn't know a g*dd*mned thing she's talking about! I am NOT taking this to heart or any blame for this. Trust me on that. I'm just sick of all their sh*t and wish they would all grow the f*ck up and act like normal g*ddamned human beings for a change!

I swear to God, one day I'll end up in prison over that one dope ho who started all this crap and caused this. I know I will, it's just a matter of time. My only hope is she gets caught with her shake and bake before I lose control of my temper and stop putting my family's welfare first.


Wow. Deliverance lives. Somebody break out the banjos.



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08 Oct 2012, 5:11 pm

pezar wrote:
OliveOilMom wrote:
Because I'm running out of ways to describe the craziness, aka Southern Gothic theme, that is in my life. It's gotten so to the point that if I didn't know me and live this, that even I would think I was making this shinola up! But, unfortunately, it's real.

Now, last night my two boys got in a knock down drag out fight at my crazy chair-ridden MIL's house and nobody broke up the fight even though there were four other grown men there. They just let it go till both boys tired out. This was not just usual sibling nonsense of halfway hard arm punching and wresteling. This involved broken facial bones, concussions, blood, and many many bruises. They went to the ER and are fine, but neither would leave. The older is living there now and the younger said h*ll no, he's not going anywhere. So, they ignored each other all day today. I do not know how that will end tonight, when the older boy gets to drinking again and him and his friend want to mess with the younger boy again. (My boys are 23 and 17, so they aren't kids)

My Mother has gotten involved. She has (oh joy!) Borderline Personality Disorder and PLUS, now that she's as old as she is, she's got the old lady crazy as a sh*thouse rat thing going on too, so all she does is fan the flames. She's got to call them up every few hours and start something. None of them will listen to me and not listen to her and just block her number or anything. They eat that sh*t up like it's water in the Arabian desert or something.

Now, my husbands there, their daddy. He's half drunk in the mornings and sh*tfaced drunk by dark, so he's no help.

Then, on top of it all, I get a call from you know who. You know who says "Come over" I say I can't cause I'm the only one here with my youngest (16) and she's not feeling good, plus I don't know what's gonna happen tonight at the lake. Then you know who throws a little temper fit on the phone and hangs up and shows up drunker than Cooter Brown at my house! Then after getting rid of you know who, I get another call from my Mother informing me that somehow or other all this sh*t is my fault.

I just hung up on her. She's nuts and doesn't know a g*dd*mned thing she's talking about! I am NOT taking this to heart or any blame for this. Trust me on that. I'm just sick of all their sh*t and wish they would all grow the f*ck up and act like normal g*ddamned human beings for a change!

I swear to God, one day I'll end up in prison over that one dope ho who started all this crap and caused this. I know I will, it's just a matter of time. My only hope is she gets caught with her shake and bake before I lose control of my temper and stop putting my family's welfare first.


Wow. Deliverance lives. Somebody break out the banjos.


Not very original, and also doesn't make sense because you have obviously never seen the movie. It has nothing like that in there. Oh well, some people who just want to be a**holes think they are clever by choosing the easiest remark.

Try again. Fail.


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