I want to travel back to Summer 2004, when I've started here

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I want to travel back to my first two years on WrongPlanet. I was much better back than, than I am, today. I was between obsessions and I've thought that I would never have another obsession, for as long as I were to live. Maybe apart from Austin Powers. The thing is that I was able to wait three days, before I would mention anything about Austin. I was able to wait three entire days! That's how strong, I was durring my first two years at this site. I was a tough little cookie, too. There was only one time that I wasn't so tough, around the time of the London Bombings. I was as tough as ever, after I've gotten over that, and it didn't take me long. I was fine from late August 2005, until December 10, 2005, when I've read about my Buses in my local paper. That's when my AS had started worsening, instead of improving. I should have never read that newspaper on December 10, 2005. Maybe I'd still be Higher Functioning, like I used to be. I wish I had a Time Machine, so that I could travel back to 2004 and most of 2005, when I was still High Functioning.

In life, I've learnt not to regret anything. There are things I could look back on and say I wish it didn't happen, but then we wouldn't be ourselves huh?

Things may get worse, but things do need to get worse so that people can acknowledge when they are actually improving instead of taking it for granted. You're looking back on a time that for you saw improvement, how about looking into the future and imagining a time when things will improve once again, as I'm sure they will do?!?

I should have never looked through my archives. Now I'm feeling sick to my stomach.

This isn't directed at any one person. It's directed at everybody. I've wanted you all to know that I was higher functioning at one point, and I will be, again. I'd love to be where I was, two years ago, in the way of functioning and I've wanted all of you to have a glimpse of what I was like in healthier days. I don't want you to think I'm doing a typecast of my past, or feelings. I just want some help from everybody, so I can get back to where I was, at a faster pace is all.

I tend not to look back on nasty experiences. I try and move on with things and get on with life.

Thats the problem with life - you can't have everything go your way and you can't control it so not worrying about it is all you can do.

Thankyou for all of your responses. I'm going to stop taking everything for granted and celebrete the differences that I possess, at this moment, instead of longning for my stronger, and healthier days. I might have let myself go, between Last December and this moment, but that doesn't mean that I can't enjoy life to the fullest. I'm going to enjoy my Present Life to its fullest, and I will not long for my Past, any more. I'm going to avoid my archives like a bad plaque, from this moment, on.