How to cope!?

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It has been addressed both that I have a very serious problem with self acceptance and that I do actually have depression. Both of these feel like nothing to me. My problem is that I am being hounded by a special interest I no longer want. It feels like my interest is a friend who had decided it didn't want to know me any more, it slowly drifted away and after a little while I was ok with that, I was hurt but I was ok. Then out of nowhere over the past week it's began sneaking back and it's that friendship thing again, it comes back but I don't want it any more. I'd had breaks from the interest where they had disapeared for so long and then came back and it's like I decided when it really faded that enough was enough and I don't want this to come firing back. It would be cruelty to myself because the last film to do with this film series comes out in a weeks time. I am horrified to find that this interest is coming back and that I want it to stay away, to go away forever but I'm struggling to force it. I really feel its upseting my mental health and I don't know how to cope. Since my old interest had its time of totally not mattering I've had three short interests, in the moment I'm sort of into an interest I had when I was younger and I feel like it is very sadly starting to disappear them all of a sudden I have one day or a few hours when it is thick in my mind.

I know people might struggle to answer all of this but my psychologist is trying to help me I see her again next Tuesday but I don't know what I do till then. The usual sleeping, excercise, music and other things that are suppose to help distract someone's mind or lift depression are not helping. I can't read because my thoughts stray and I am pretty desperate to keep my thoughts on this old childhood interest I've got back I know I am trying too hard to keep it but I have so much stress going on right now that I can't do anything but try and keep hold of this. I'm just so fed up and I need some way to keep myself happy till then, or beyond then since I don't think I can be cured in one hour long session. I really want to shut off these old thoughts. I've done it before somehow, at a time when it didn't matter but now I can't at a time when it really, really, REALLY, does matter that I get rid of these thoughts!!

First off I want to state up front I do not know the answer.

But reading your post and trying to understand the problem does bring certain memories to mind of similiar things I have felt (or still feel). So I will share some ideas for you to consider in case you see anything that might be useful. One of the problems I run into when considering other people is we are all so individual and different, that I find suggesting some course of action entire it doesn't really work for them. However, a person can pick and choose the pieces and parts of various suggestions and from things you have read, etc, to build up your own successful coping strategy, tailored to you.

One thing I see, is that some of the different interests you mention are actually just parts of the same overall interest. So interests like Narnia, or Twilight, etc, are all really one interest which is enjoying fictional fantasy worlds.

Writing is another interest, but I am not sure if it is linked to he above only, or a distinct interest in itself.

So you have so far (That I am aware of) two interests:

- Fantasy Fiction
- Writing

I consider these both cerebral interests, that occupy and exercise your brain only.

Shifting to myself... I found that only having cerebral interests was not enough to maintain general sense of contentment and well being. They were enough to provide pleasurable distraction at certain times but if it was all I had it led to depression.

I had to be alternating my cerebral interests with some physical based activity to feel alright. Our brains are meant for thinking and our bodies are meant for moving, but they are connected of course, and perhaps not just in physically supporting ways (ie. Better physical condition improving blood flow to brain) but also maybe in less apparent systemic and psychological ways. I think it is a matter of maintaining balance.

Some things I did that were physical

Sports
Exercise (can be formal like gym equipment or running, swimming, rollerskating, horseback riding, walking)
Yardwork, Gardening (indoor and outdoor)
Chores (ie. cleaning)
Special Projects, Work (ie. Painting a room, cleaning out the cellar, etc)
Job (sometimes your job can have physical elements)

Sometimes, when I felt depression coming on I would note what I had been doing more of (cerebral or physical) and purposely shift to the other.

A third element was having social activty, which you can think of as the third leg of the stool. Aspies may need less, but having none, particularly when you are young I do not believe is good for your well being, for we are social beings.

The fourth leg of the stool I will just also mention, is emotional bonds with people like family and friends.