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25 Sep 2019, 10:53 pm

martianprincess wrote:
A lot of people I know do and sometimes I feel like an imposter and like I'm failing everyone. Realistically I know that's not true.

prego :) i would be very thankful if i had your kinda brainpower and gumption to be able to drop everything and enroll in med school. :study:



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26 Sep 2019, 3:33 am

martianprincess wrote:
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I f****d up by thinking I could try to be a doctor. I was already feeling like existing is inconvenient lately and getting my score back from an exam today made it worse. I feel like I’m wasting my time when all I can do is get Bs on tests no matter how much I study and everyone else around me gets As. I am such an idiot. The really sad thing is I’d make such an amazing physician and I can’t understand why getting Bs in classes matters more than that. I’ve been working towards this for over a year and uprooted my life and career for this. Failure is not a f*****g option and here I am, floundering.

I feel so lost and so dejected. I’m so so so tired of never feeling good enough.


idiots don't get B's. a B is a good grade. a mix of A's aND B's and one C - first term of chem got me into med school. and med school is not the only option. there's dental school. and nursing. and working in a lab (with a science degree).



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26 Sep 2019, 4:47 am

Almost 7. Not quite 7. Is morning here. Not had breakfast yet.

6.9? Maybe 6.8?

Lets see how the days going... A bright new shiney day!


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26 Sep 2019, 5:05 am

^^^yay :flower:



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26 Sep 2019, 7:02 pm

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27 Sep 2019, 11:13 am

1. Just hanging on to my sanity despite the overwhelming anxiety.
I went to a criminal justice course today which consists of almost entirely public speaking. (which my previous employer insisted i go) you basically have to act out all the process in front of 30 people and my heart was beating so fast the entire time.



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27 Sep 2019, 11:21 am

-10

Why do people tell me they don’t want me to die but still hate me and don’t want me to have a girlfriend?



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27 Sep 2019, 11:31 am

-2

Waiting for my hopes and dreams to be stomped all over again and pulverized until there's nothing left, at which point my number will plummet along with them.


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27 Sep 2019, 11:34 am

^^Anybody who is so articulate will never have their dreams "pulverized."

I'm about a 3 myself. Maybe a 2. At least I'm in plus territory. I don't feel so good physically. I feel apathy emotionally. And a little anxious, too.



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27 Sep 2019, 3:43 pm

Unknown, really.

I could've said cold, hungry, just woke up early morning with another weekend day job on double time in few hours.
Might've stressed this body out for weeks now, except I've yet to have any breakdowns. If anything, I don't sense too much temptations of lazing about and go comfortable nor still had a hard time resisting just like several attempts before for the most of my current lifetime.


But what I actually feel? I'm not so sure still.
Felt more alien than ever, but also felt more connected and less conditional than ever. :lol: Internally AND in action.

What a contradiction...


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27 Sep 2019, 7:25 pm

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27 Sep 2019, 7:28 pm

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27 Sep 2019, 7:32 pm

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28 Sep 2019, 3:12 am

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I don't even want to describe it. I think I will get a bottle from the store today and simply obliterate myself to sleep. Seems simple enough.Who cares? whatever? Connections? Really? Who? They understand? How? Why even? Let me go. You don't care. Let me play word games until I unravel. I'm a dissipative system in the truly dissipative sense.



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28 Sep 2019, 5:27 am

La_Fenkis. Just to say I have read. Don't know what to say, or how to respond except to send virtual (((Hugs))).


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28 Sep 2019, 2:08 pm

Eh. I was in a terrible mood last night. Felt like some people who seemed friendly stopped being that way. Took it hard. I'm feeling a bit better today. Embarrassed and stupid, but better. I think I'm feeling a bit alienated at work and school.