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Dillogic
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14 Dec 2011, 11:37 am

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Utterly useless.

I've failed everything:

School (failed high school)
College (failed all but one subject, which I should have failed but there was an error in the system so they just gave it to me)
Relations (I couldn't make her happy, and all she wanted was the most basic of stuff. The less spoken about the other the better)
Friends (hurt them so much due to how I am)
Driving (too many processes; didn't even pass the Learner's test)
Work (on disability)
Would be homeless if it weren't for one person
I so really want to see what the future holds; if it continues on with how it has been, I'm just going to laugh until I can't laugh anymore, as that's all that can be done
(And man, this isn't even talking about the terrible personal stuff that has happened to me)

I don't see the point in giving me the appearance of appearing, and often wanting, normal. It's just cruel.

Not negative Nancy, as Nancy is only negative due to her nail polish not turning out how she expected.

I don't want empathy, this is me just pointing out the truth to no one (it's something I need to do), as I don't want said one person who gives me shelter to feel sad for me, which makes her feel sad for herself and sorry to me for bringing me into this world.



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14 Dec 2011, 11:51 am

Double



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14 Dec 2011, 2:14 pm

10! I got my scholarship reinstated! I'm going to NAU in January!! !!


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14 Dec 2011, 2:27 pm

-7 I miss someone. :cry:



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14 Dec 2011, 3:12 pm

Somewhere in the negatives. Extremely frustrated and worn out by headaches and this headache specifically right now.



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14 Dec 2011, 4:43 pm

-5 I worry for the future


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14 Dec 2011, 5:13 pm

Dillogic wrote:
-10

Utterly useless.

I've failed everything:

School (failed high school)
College (failed all but one subject, which I should have failed but there was an error in the system so they just gave it to me)
Relations (I couldn't make her happy, and all she wanted was the most basic of stuff. The less spoken about the other the better)
Friends (hurt them so much due to how I am)
Driving (too many processes; didn't even pass the Learner's test)
Work (on disability)
Would be homeless if it weren't for one person
I so really want to see what the future holds; if it continues on with how it has been, I'm just going to laugh until I can't laugh anymore, as that's all that can be done
(And man, this isn't even talking about the terrible personal stuff that has happened to me)

I don't see the point in giving me the appearance of appearing, and often wanting, normal. It's just cruel.

Not negative Nancy, as Nancy is only negative due to her nail polish not turning out how she expected.

I don't want empathy, this is me just pointing out the truth to no one (it's something I need to do), as I don't want said one person who gives me shelter to feel sad for me, which makes her feel sad for herself and sorry to me for bringing me into this world.


You've given me far much more happiness than pain, Daniel.


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14 Dec 2011, 5:20 pm

+5

Everything just seems to fall into place for me. I have no idea how I've managed to get so lucky over the years.


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14 Dec 2011, 5:49 pm

-6.5 Litte better today but starting to worry I have a new norm for happiness level still miss her :(



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14 Dec 2011, 7:36 pm

-9.6


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14 Dec 2011, 7:48 pm

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Idiot leadership in America! Yay MORE idiot leadership in America! :x



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14 Dec 2011, 9:11 pm

up down up down up down



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14 Dec 2011, 9:15 pm

Like I am about to go off the deep end, and maybe that's just what I need.


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15 Dec 2011, 1:33 am

I kinda wish I was dead so I could feel nothing....


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15 Dec 2011, 1:39 am

Death, come and take me, please. Can't take another 50 or 60 years of this sh1t. Why did you have to let my parents come home and find me in 2003 when I had the guts to down a bottle of whiskey and was 15 minutes away from the end.



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15 Dec 2011, 4:45 am

I wonder if she's as sad as me for losing me as I am for her.

I know what I hope, but I sadly know reality.

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