Behaviorist optimism and harsh realities

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13 Dec 2012, 9:11 am

The behaviorist that has been trying to get help for the borderline personality disorder said a few things of note.

She said my relationship with my family is one of the most dysfunctional she has seen, especially with my mother/father. She believes (as I do too) that this is rooted in nmy parents fighting through me during their divorce.

She also said I have one of the harshest pasts of anyone she has worked with so far and that she is shocked that I remained this strong despite that. I have to give half credit to my mentor, however...he helped me get the past the initial depression caused by nihilism.

She also said that she thinks that many of my issues are self inflicted due to the BPD. That being said, however, she thinks the reason I am so detached from reality the majority of the time is that it is a coping method for how harsh my past was.

The optimism here comes from the fact that for once, I actually have hope. I have all of you here to thank for helping me through some of the roughest moments of getting this taken care of.

Now that the state of Florida and child protective services is involved hopefully I can get diagnosis of BPD and get the dialectical behavior therapy...we find out later today.


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13 Dec 2012, 2:05 pm

Told you you were strong...Told you so :D

I'm so glad the behaviorist is trying to help! You mention child services...are you under 18? If so, that must be really hard because you might not be able to get away from your parents. I hope you are not stuck living with people who are toxic.

Even if the state won't pay for dialectical behavior therapy, don't give up. You can still learn the ideas behind that type of therapy and start trying to do them yourself. Obviously, that's not the ideal way to go about it, but it's better than nothing.

You can also look for community services therapists who do DBT for free or reduced rates to people who can't afford full price.

Good luck :)



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13 Dec 2012, 3:27 pm

Sometimes I feel strong, sometimes I don't. When I don't working out helps. I think it's strong of me that despite all this BS I've never done any drugs besides caffeine.

I am 17 right now...and my father was really pissed off that child services will have him under surveillance now. Seems to have encouraged him to be less passive, however. That is in itself a victory.

How would one even do the dialectical behavior therapy by themself? Doesn't it involve someone more stable to keep the delusions out of the therapy?

The community services mention is always an option.


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