Apology

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Had a little breakdown recently, which I'm sure those who read my posts could tell. Severe depression, stress, just not being able to take it anymore, etc. I'm better now. No doctors, no shrinks, therapists, counselors, shoulder to cry on, etc. Unfortunately. I just really had to work it all out in my head and also get off my butt and fix the money situation that was causing the stress.

I've actually come out of it with a different atttitude about a few people, and much, much stronger. I don't need the emotional stuff as much as I did before. At least not at the moment.

Anyhoo, to those who I offended, the whole big bunch of them because I'm sure I offended a lot of people, I do apologize. I wasn't trying to lash out and hurt others, although I did, I suppose what I was trying to do is show the outside world how much pain I was feeling inside. Basically adjust everything down to that level. Doesn't make much sense unless you have been there yourself, and if you haven't then just please believe me that it does make sense to me, and be very glad you never been in those shoes.

Later taters. I'll be around. Holler at me.

Welcome back, Kotter.

Did I ever tell you about my Uncle Morty?.......

Its ok OOM,

We all go through phases when everything seems to be going wrong.
Just try to avoid being around a computer next time hon

I'm just glad you're all right. I didn't like to think of you sitting around in the cold and the dark.

I've been there,you owe me no apologies.
I'm just delighted that you feel better.
I hope that things continue to improve for you.Stay strong,be the steel magnolia I know you are!! !
Luv ya girl!

I'm glad you are feeling better. It sounds like you had a cathartic experience. Sometimes when I sink really low, I come back with new found strength.

I feel stronger than ever now, emotionally. As you could probably tell by reading over my crazy posts, I was an emotional wreck. I decided that I'm done and all I really need is me. No matter what my family thinks, no matter what anybody else thinks, my opinion is the only one that will make me truly happy. And right now, I'm an awesome freaking chick. I may not be the best at stuff, I may not even be good at most stuff, but I'm the only me I've got so I best be liking me or else I'll always be unhappy.

So true. It's easy to be hard on yourself; I have to work to see the positives in myself. But it's better than the alternative.

OliveOilMom how did you get yourself out of that black hole? Because I am there now, and I want to stop hurting and lashing out real bad.

Well, for starters I had a looming financial crisis over me that I had to make phone calls to avert, so I did that. Then I stayed over at my mothers house for three days and didn't talk to her. She's borderline personality disorder and she loves drama and conflict and i didn't give her any.

Everything went good up until this morning, which I will post about in a seperate post.