I am repulsive

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I am poor, stinky, ugly, stupid, uneducated, slow, mentally weak, and a bum. I hate myself

I'm 26 years old and I can't even drive. I still live at home w/ my Grandma, surviving off SSI checks. I am a pathetic POS that plays video games and watches porn and anime all day.

I have no special skills or talents.

I have no friends, never even so much as hugged a girl in my life.

I dropped out in the 9th grade after spending most of my school years in special ed. College was never an option for me. I am an idiot, I know next to nothing about ANYTHING worthwhile; religion, politics, history, math, science, literature, philosophy, etc. Who would want to hang out with someone as dumb as that.

Combine that with the fact that I stink even when I shower for some reason, and that I'm so ugly that people know something's wrong with me just by looking at my face, it just makes me more repulsive.

I almost forgot to mention that I have this disgusting fungi growing over my body for the past 5-6 years.

I don't do myself any other favors when I open my mouth, as people can tell I'm stupid/somehow off just by hearing me talk for a min or two.

I've never had any real friends. Most of the people I hung out with in the past treated me like s**t, shunned me, and only acted nicely whenever they wanted something.

I mean who could blame them, who would want to be seen in public with some grotesque loser like me?

I have no shot at dating or making friends. I'm just sorry, pathetic, good for nothing human being that's never accomplished anything in my life.

I should just off myself, it's not going to get any better.

My dad was a crackhead who tried to burn me alive when I was a baby, and my mother had a mental breakdown soon after she had me and my sister.

She has spent the last 20 years in a mental home for paranoid schizophrenia. My grandma raised me. I was raped when I was 6 by my cousin and I was physically abused by my uncle from my child hood to my early teens.

My life has been horrible.

Try hanging out in Essex.

^ That wasn't a jab at you, btw.

moved from Love & Dating to The Haven

Why did you move the thread? Why can't you just leave me alone? It seems like you're always out to get me. If you didn't like the thread you could've just ignored it.

It had a lot to do with dating.

Hey-

I can understand feeling down on yourself, and I've felt the same way at times. I really don't want you to be so hard on yourself, though.

Here are some great things about you that I can tell just from your post:
1. You are NOT an idiot. Your post was clearly written and you spelled everything correctly. I never would have thought you were stupid from your post.

2. Though I bet you're not as bad as you say, the way you wrote this post was both authentic and honest. Authenticity and honesty are very valuable characteristics in someone.

3. You haven't had an easy life. Even if you haven't accomplished what you want, give yourself credit for everything you do- no matter how small. For example, do something nice for your Grandma.

4. Do you have the opportunity to see a therapist to discuss any of these concerns you have?

For what it's worth, I do have days where I feel the same way- that I have no talents, no friends or relationships, and that people will never want anything to do with me because I'm physically unattractive and socially awkward. I view this as a blessing in disguise- because I have nothing to lose by going for what I really want.

Sending good thoughts your way.

no, this thread is about you and why you don't think you deserve happiness. you have started more than a dozen identical threads where you complain and argue with members who try to guide and help you. eventually, the threads make people angry because they want to help you and you aren't very nice to them. so it's better off if you start in here, where the intention is clear: for you to have support.

i am not sure why you came back after a 3 month absence to say the same things again (people gave you a lot of good advice before), but i am sure that people will be willing to try to help as always.

Because things haven't changed and they never will. I come here to vent when I'm feeling really frustrated and feeling sorry for myself.

In Love & Dating I get more replies, and besides, my posts ARE about dating (or lack thereof) for me.

I talk about what most women find attractive and how I relate to that.

Your pick up line "I am repulsive" needs some work...

The Haven is the area of the forum designed for venting and feeling sorry for yourself, so the thread fits perfectly here.

You're more literate than the majority of people on the internet.

See this is why I hate the Haven. I barely get any responses to my threads.

It's f*****g annoying

May I ask you if you have ever got any help for your problems?

You mention that you;ve got some kind of fungi problem, can you get that treated?

You also mentioned that you're into anime/ games, maybe you could join a society for that?

With regards to the rest, I would recommend seeing a therapist for that, as it sounds like there is a lot of unfinished problems within your life.

I have no "life". I am a pathetic loser. I'm 26 and I still live at home, I don't have any friends, I can't drive, don't have a job, and I'm poor.

I look like an ugly crackhead by the face, and people treat me as such. No one respects me.

I have no future, I can't get into college, I'll never have good playing job because I'm too stupid and slow, and I'll never date and marry.

I've spent nearly every day of the past 5-6 years playing video games or looking at porn/anime.

Who would want to be someone like me.

We have all tried to help you here. Now, I totally understand being at a point where you can't take it anymore, don't want to listen to anyone else and just want to vent and scream and all that. I totally get it. But there comes a time for that sh*t to stop and for you to get off your a** and do something about the problem. You are the only one who can fix this.

I am not pretty either. Trust me on that one. My looks are something that I would honestly kill to change if I could. But I can't. So, I developed other parts of me so people don't notice my looks so much. You are not helpless. You are not ever going to have someone swoop in to fix stuff for you. Life doesn't work that way. You have to do things yourself, and most of the things you have to do to fix it, suck. But, it's either that or stay how you are.

When you are ready to actually do something, hit me up. Otherwise, this is my last word on one of your threads. I'll be glad to help you if you will do something, but otherwise, I won't even read the whine. I'm sorry if that sounds harsh, I don't mean it to, but sometimes people need to hear that. I know I have before. So, I'm just passing on what I know to work.

You are 26, in ten years if you do nothing, you will still be in the same situation, same as if you try and fail. There is a chance you will succeed if you try, which is better odds than if you do nothing more than feel sorry for yourself. A pity party is great from time to time. I have them myself. However, the time is over with for that, son. It's time to get up, put on your boots and go do something about whats bothering you! Or you can wallow in it. The choice is yours.