Help, I've got the new years even blues already

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I know it's not new years eve yet but it's creeping up quick and everybody's talking about what they're going to do. I don't really care for celebrating the new year because 2013 is not going to be a good year in my circumstances (that's a different subject). But because everybody else is going to be out partying like mad, I know I am going to feel isolated and pathetic just sitting in. I might aswell be the same age as my mum. Maybe my mum and her friends and sisters and brother aren't going out, but they all used to at one point. I just feel like I am missing out, isolating myself and being unsociable.

Last week I said to my friend (who is a bit older than me) that I need to go to my friend's house to post a Christmas card for him, so I said I was going round there before I got my bus home. But my friend said, ''oh, I wouldn't if I were you, there will be all youngsters about forcing you to drink alcohol, and then they will take the mickey out of you because you don't drink.'' I really don't know why my friend came out with that because a) it was only early afternoon, a couple of days before Christmas Eve, and b) I've never known there to be youngsters dotted about near people's houses forcing people to drink and taking the mickey if they don't. Yeah, maybe it sounds quite familiar to some, but that doesn't happen around here where I come from, maybe late at night on a special occasion like new years eve. I wondered if my friend was trying to take the mickey out of me herself because she knows I don't drink.

But anyway, yes, new years eve is coming and it is putting a blanket of depression on me. I try to block it out but I can't. It keeps eating at me inside. I'm just so scared my Aspie friend is going to turn round and say that she's going out to some party on new years eve - even though she has less friends than me and really hates dancing, drinking, socialising, and sex. I feel like I'm the only person of my peers that isn't going to be out on new years eve, and I just wish I knew another young person who says they hate parties and drinking and actually mean it!

Probably little consolation to you now, but the last two New Years Eves I went to bed well before midnight and was asleep while it all happened. I am still alive and well

Also, I don't have any plans yet for this year and chances are I will not be doing anything that is socially accepted for new years eve. (i.e. no celebrations)

I don't like drinking and I mean it (I don't drink, simple as that). I do like some aspects of what people refer to as "partying" (dislike this superficial term), but most events that are referred to as "parties" are not compatible with my preferences.

It always mystifies me when I hear about people who don't drink. I respect that. It's just that I had my first drink, gin, at 7 or 8 and started drinking regularly at 18 in college. It's probably a deep dark shame because it's one of the reasons why I don't go to the aspie meetup groups - no alcohol allowed. I went to a bar this Sunday to see the Seahawks/49ers game, but I couldn't have done it without a few under the belt. Drinking lessens my inhibitions and makes socializing possible. No beer, no hanging out.

I don't want to hijack this thread, but to briefly explain why I don't drink. It's not that I never did drink. I did. and I didn't like it. By "like" I mean the actual taste of alcoholic drinks, especially beer. Don't like it. That alone would already be reason enough not to drink, but as it happens I also don't like the fact that I can do things while drunk that I can't do while not drunk. While some may like being less inhibited and the reduction of social anxiety, I see it as lying to myself. It's not who I am and if I can't do it when sober, then I can't do it. I don't like other people who are drunk and are impossible to interact/deal with, I don't like the justification that alcohol gives for unsocial behaviour, be it trivial (e.g. swearing) or serious (e.g. leading to court action). Lastly, I don't like paying for it. Spend the money on other things that I can enjoy for longer than just a couple of hours.

Not criticizing people who do drink, just explaining myself. Anyways, back to the thread topic

I have to be really drunk before my inhibitions are lessened. Mostly, drinking just makes me feel physically weird.

I spent my youth going to New Year's celebrations (because boyfriends wanted to) and I much prefer sitting at home by myself. To me, the New Year is not something positive. It represents impermanence and loss. I grieve every New Years.

I almost posted this thread myself. I've been sober for 7 years but I'm feeling lately I used to be able to come up with more creative solutions to taking the edge off the usual aspie NYE, plus the fireworks never seemed to bother me as much then. I've half a mind to sneak up to the mountains and ride it out Rambo-style this year, though I'd much rather be around at least 1 other like-minded person, I'm not a total hermit

Somehow I feel like me not drinking means I'm ridiculous/missing out on something that's ''important''.

I do have emetophobia, which is another standard reason why I don't drink. Having one or two drinks doesn't make me more social, and having more than two makes me sick, it's happened before. I don't like being sick, therefore I will not drink. I do not want to get into that habit either, it's just not me.

Also, another reason why I avoid bars and drinking is because I've heard a few horror stories about what happened to people in bars. My mum's friend said she went to a bar once and started chatting to a man, and he seemed all nice. Then suddenly she really quickly came over all ill, was sick all of a sudden, had really bad diarrhoea, and even passed out. She had never got like this before, and she only had one mild drink, and she was certain this man had put something in her drink. He didn't even want to know when she was feeling really bad, and the bouncers in the bar thought she was just really, really drunk, so they chucked her out, and she was just left alone on the streets, completely sobar but was very ill.
And the second horror story is, a friend of my cousin has an older sister who was on the Autism spectrum, and they took her out with them one night to a bar place. This girl didn't normally like drinking or socialising, but she ended up having quite a few to drink, and she did one of the most embarrassing things you can think of. She ended up dancing about in the middle of the street with her skirt and her knickers round her ankles, and all these youngsters who didn't know her were laughing at her, and one of them took videos of her on their phones and put it up on Youtube. Now the girl feels so embarrassed to go out that she hasn't been out since it happened, which was nearly a year ago. She is going through a lot of therapy now.

That is why I am NOT going to drink, so nobody make me feel ridiculous if I say I hate drinking. I know it might not happen to me, blah blah blah, but it has still put me off. I don't think drinking alcohol is really the answer to all my problems. In fact it'd just make them worse.

And this thread wasn't really just about who drinks and who doesn't, it's more about going out to parties and celebrating the new year.

Have to say I understand your feelings completely. I really don't look forward to spending new years eve. It's the day of the year I feel the most lonely. I usually try to celebrate the day with a close friend, but I haven't been able to the last few years. So yea... Not looking forward to the day myself.

And also; who says we have to drink on new years? It hasn't helped me becoming any more social, I still find all the noisy people annoying after I have drunk a little. So yea, for me there is no reason to drink.

My plan is to go to sleep early and just sleep through the day. That way I can quickly forget about this day.