14 Jan 2013, 10:08 am
someone very importent to me is in hospital with anorxia -5 and half stone ( 30 kilos) and getting thinner day by day 
as some of you may know i have suffred with anorixa and bulima myself since my teens but got my symtons under control enough to leave hospital last yr.
But i would give that all up for her to get well- i really turly would give anything to be on her place so she could get home to her two beautifual kids who need her so much and find the happiness she desreves .
i feel so week and powerless to help. she hepled me get well and ive tried to help her too but i cant why does the f*****g horrible evil disease claim so many lives? Where the f**k is the justiuce??? why should such a kind caring wonderful girl have to go though all that s**t ???? why???? i just cant understnd
for the past week i have been condsidering taking my own life because i cant bear to live in a world that is so f*****g cruel fighting the urge to slash myself up to ribbons but i know that isnt going to hel p her or myself .
f**k you ana- f**k off and die </3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jh5JPEm0GMc&noredirect=1
AardvarkGoodSwimmer
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14 Jan 2013, 3:37 pm
Hi, maybe you can only help her 10 % then other people can also help her another 10%, and then she has probably to do the majority on her own, but the help is important.
Your 10% is important. 
Of course, it is. Take the breaks you need, but please try to stay avialable. And please stay with us. Feel free to use us as a resource entirely at times of your own choosing.
Use your broader social network, whether this is a medical professional of some sort, or just someone who has some life experience and who is a good listener.
And instead of directly hurting yourself, maybe over-exercise, even to the point of injury, as a possble better alternative ? ?
PS I liked the video. None of us should have to be that perfect. I think I've struggled with this from another direction, not with anorexia, but with obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD), which I will be the first to acknowledge is different, but I do know what it's like to feel I have to be perfect in order to be accepted / liked
