I'm depressed, what should I do?

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I've been depressed for a while now, and yesterday I was suicidal. I'm still feeling a little suicidal today. I'm pretty much in the worst place I've ever been. I feel really alone, and I can't really do anything about it because I don't have any friends, and my family's too busy for me.

What should I do so I don't hurt myself? The stuff I used to love to do doesn't make me feel happy anymore. Nothing really does. I put undue amounts of pressure on the one person I care about right now, and I feel horrible about it, so I can't really talk to them.

Help...? (btw, this is more of a short-term question, I need to find something now or... yeah)

You're doing the best thing by communicating with people like on this forum. I can't stress enough how important that is. And I should know. I've been where you are...and worse.

Sent you a PM, talk to me.

So I already said elsewhere that you should read allll of Kate Bornsteins books, you really should. She has one called "Hello, Cruel World: 101 Alternatives to Suicide for Teens, Freaks, and Other Outlaws"
with lists of what you can do instead, among other things. Here's the book in .pdf so you can read it right now if you want to: http://fromonesurvivortoanother.tumblr. ... d-book-pdf

Also call a suicide-hotline http://www.suicidehotlines.com

Psych hospitals are always a good place to check in to.

Okay... I think I've sort of found something...

I made a list of all the things I hate about myself. Then I thought about the aforementioned person I care about, and how they kept on telling me not to die last night.

I've come to the conclusion that it is more important for me to come to terms with my self-loathing rather than attempting to reverse it. I hate myself, and I'm not going to try and convince myself otherwise. This gave me some amount of closure. Additionally, there is someone that doesn't want me to die. Actually, there are multiple people that don't want me to die, for various reasons. It'll be okay as long as I maintain control of my emotions, and not let my hatred get of hand. I can maintain control as long as I think about those people.

Thank you for your suggestions. Anomiel, that book clearly has the potential to save someone. I don't think it'll be able to help me for numerous reasons, but I appreciate you sharing it.

I don't know if this will help you, but this is what has helped me. I get angry. I tell myself we're all going to hit that finish line, and throwing in the towel early is for quitters. If I feel like everyone is against me, then I give them all a big f### you because I have every right, and every obligation to stick it out. Feel too daunting? Try to coast a while-- no decisions, try to just throw everything possible into neutral and accept inaction for a while.
If you really don't trust yourself, check into a hospital. That's what they're for--to help you heal. Keep posting on the forum, or find the right person to talk to. There was someone there for you last night--don' t shut them out, but try to open up.
Be strong. It takes time to climb out of a gorge, just do it bit by bit.

When you are in a very emotional state its easy to get a skewed perspective on things. When I go there I try not to make decisions or even think about important things, similiar to what someone above said. My guess is that you are overcome by a lot of built up issues and emotions. You need to give yourself more time and gain more experience to sort things out.