My life is moving too fast for me to keep up with it

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Seems like yesterday I was graduating high school. I blinked, and now I graduate college in a month. After May 19, I get to enter the real world... the cruel, heartless, real world. No more Bs, Cs, and Ds. It's either an A or an F from here on out. Part of me is excited about it; I could potentially end up being anything in the world now... another part is absolutely scared s**tless, because one of those things I could end up being is a forever-alone virgin loser sitting around in my parents house in this hellhole town until I'm 30 waiting for my life to start. Most of me, though, is just wondering: Where the hell did the time go? Did I spend it the best way possible? Does it even matter if I spent it the best way? Maybe it's not even worth worrying about. Just in one of those weird reflective moods that causes me to come on here and ramble...

Your thoughts and worries are common—you're not alone. I often find myself pondering the intricacies of life with a worried forehead and furrowed brow, late in the evening when I should be enjoying the fact that I am safe, everything is fine, all is well. I've learned meditation helps me, though I admit I am working on being disciplined about doing it.

Congratulations on finishing college. That's huge!

Cheers~

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Gahhhh, it's just such a massive upheaval. I mean, I know I've just got to go with the flow and do what I gotta do, same as I've always done. But for the first time in memory, I'm not going to have plans to be enrolled in a school in the fall. I've considered doing just incredibly stupid things, like taking a temp job here in Vermont instead of a good career move somewhere else, just so I can be a bit closer to something I know, something familiar. But, like I said, that's stupid... in this economy, you have to take the good opportunities if they come up.

Don't let the media make you believe "The Economy" is a thing. They speak like it's an out of control dragon, immune from slaying. Just take it a day at a time. If having a plan makes you feel good, make a plan—make several plans, but let them be YOUR plans. You're young, you have time. Be kind to yourself. It's all good. You have nothing to lose. There are jobs out there and they'll be there when you need one. You just busted your arse through college. You can bust your arse to find a good job, when the time is right. No need to worry, friend. :0)

I envy those in European countries who take a year to travel after college, to see the world and see where they fit in. We're often rushed to quickly get a job to quickly pay off student loan debt, to quickly consume, consume, consume. (My rant, sorry!)

I hope that your life won't be filled with torture, misery and pain like mine was. Oh, and congratulations.