I Can Handle the Aspergers Thing

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However, I can do without the whole ADHD, OCD situation.

I've been toldthat while i have Aspergers, I have a mentally, emotionally, etc crippling case of ADHD and OCD, which sucks if you want to be something creative. Here is my story.

I am currently a musician. But the problem is I am so constantly distracted by my own consciousness, my own personal problems, a fleeting amount of thoughts and emotions, that I spend more time going into this overwhelming mental frenzy than actually doing some kind of work.

What forms is always these questions: What should a song sound like? Where do I begin? How do I start? Will this be any good? And plenty other questions that turn a small molehill into a volcano. I rarely get anything started, and I surely can't get anything done because I'm plagued with questions and insecurity about everything and the way I get things done. This happens everytime I try to buckle down and focus on any project I start that is extracurricular.
What is worse is that the drugs hardly work for me, and my quest to find people who would like to make music with me isn't the least bit successful.

What I like about having Aspergers is the feeling that you were born nonconformists. We are strange people who deal everydaywith people who struggle to understand us. We can't help the fact that we are weird. It's just how we are wired. We are sensitive people who live on two different worlds: our own and the ones we love share. But the extra stuff that comes with it just makes it all incredibly difficult to handle.

Does anyone else have the same feeling or any story in which having extra stuff impacts your ability to simply live life as is?

Though I have never been diagnosed with ADHD, my distractabilty does occasionally prevent me from writing as much as I would like to. My main issue with productivity, however, is my depression; I sometimes am simply too tired or too saddened to deal with reality anymore and fall away from it within my own mind.

Just keep pushing through the storm-- all clouds have to run out of water eventually. Best of luck to you and your musical endeavors!

I don't think I have ADHD (I probably don't because my IEP from primary school never mention that my attention was off). However I do have difficulties with executive function, which is associated with ADHD. That s**t just annoys the hell out of me. I really struggle with time managment and managing my workload, managing my life , etc. Most people just think I'm scatterbrained (I don't disagree with that assessment, heh) but I really do struggle with stuff like this, probably more so than the social stuff. It actually affects my uni work and it causes me a lot of stress, especially when it comes to deadlines. I'm actually doing pretty well at the moment, with all things considered, but my work could be so much better if I could put my time to better use. Still, I suspect the executive dysfunction is the reason why I get to superfocused on stuff I'm interested in and that is really useful, actually.