So much for being a nonsmoker

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The stress has built up and built up and I finally succumbed. I went in the bedroom and got one out of my husbands pack and snuck out on the front porch and smoked a cigarette. I snuck because even though everybody is asleep, I didn't want anybody to know I cheated and smoked. If they ask I'll tell them but I'd rather keep this to myself right now because I'm disappointed in myself for it and also if nobody knows and I keep it hidden I'll smoke less overall.

It was not very good though. In fact it tasted like crap because of the Welbutrin that I'm on. It was not satisfying in the least. I enjoy how it smells when it's burning and someone else is smoking so I was pretty sure I'd enjoy smoking again myself. I did not. I did however get a cigarette buzz and even got unsteady on my feet there for a minute.

So, maybe I won't start back. I'm so hoping not, but the stress was just too much.

don't let one little slip make you give up on such an important goal as quitting smoking. I read your other post. you had a really rough day.

I read your other post too... I feel bad for your situation... I think you did marvelous under the strain of your day. You slipped today... Tomorrow is another day.

Hope it all eases up for you soon.

You might smoke less overall, but it really just extends the misery involved.

About twenty or so years ago, I ran across something about quitting smoking being than it is for a heroin addict to give up heroin. I have no idea if that is actually true or not.

That could be true, but it sounds silly in a way cause cigarettes don't even get you high. That's also another reason for getting the willpower to quit smoking them in the first place.

I suspect some smokers just get mentally-addicted to the motions of smoking such as holding the cigarette between their index/middle finger while flicking the ashes off the end of it between puffs.

So you made a mistake, no problem, don't be hard on yourself.

You know what the right thing to do now is don't you?

First, if the addiction was related to the actions of smoking, it wouldn't be difficult to quit. The addiction is to the nicotine.

Second, the notion that there has to be a high involved somewhere is nonsense.

As I understand it the nicotine is more or equally addictive as heroin.
However the withdrawal effects are obviously much stronger with the latter.

Physiologically, smoking stimulates adrenaline and dopamine production so there is a high, technically.
This the reason the people suffering anxiety and/or depression are more likely to smoke and find it harder to stop.

More power to you OliveOilMom.
Don't give up on giving up!

A "high" being involved is the case with almost any other mentally or physically addicting drug I can think of including caffeine.

Don't take it too hard - Big Tobacco has made those fun little sticks with a toxic, addictive blend of 4000 chemicals designed to stay in your body and keep you addicted for YEARS afterward!

It's going to be very tough to quit. One slip from time to time is not a failure - just stick to the goal of quitting and your body will eventually thank you for it.

Just make sure it doesnt become a habit again and you ll be fine OOM.

Hope stress goes down soon though

It could be worse—you could be a heavy, passive smoker

When I'm in a stressful situation, the first thing that comes to mind is, "I need a cigarette!" But then I think about how icky it would feel to have a cigarette buzz and the problem would still be there after the cigarette is gone. Hang in there. It can be done.

I've smoked today, some. Just a few actually. I have not enjoyed it and I'm not going to waste time tomorrow smoking. A slip is a slip and it's not the end of the world. I'm not kicking myself. It's not like I went out and bought a carton or anything. Well, actually I did but it was for my husband which I do every week lol.

Not gonna do it tomorrow. I can do this. I did it last time without welbutrin and this time I have welbutrin so it will be a breeze!