I blurted out im autistic =/

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Hey everyone.. lately I've been really stressed out .... Today me and my friends were outside and most of them were having an a,b,c conversation. Things have been odd enough already with this that was going on(http://www.wrongplanet.net/postp5341350 ... t=#5341350)
There were like two groups. Two kids from drama and some kids from the group ive been hanging out with, also with one girl from drama. They were both having conversation and I was just in the middle going from group to group.

But now joining and being in conversations feels so awkward.. sometimes I don't even feel like I belong in the conversation. Plus im naïve and sensitive. So me and my friend were walking home and I was still stressed out from that. Our conversation then led to the problems ive been having in math (Which also makes me stressed because I have an odd relationship with her) She failed me at the very end of the marking period because ive been going to resorse a few times when I was supposed to be in class to work on other work . ( Which I didn't relize was wrong because I thought you could do that even though she said she will change my grade if I can get it together) My friend then asked me if I liked math which made me think of the teacher more. I didn't say anything about my teacher though except that she failed me. Then my friend relised he didn't have his sweater and I told him it happens to me sometimes to and asked him if he left it in his locker. Then he told me he didn't have a locker and I said maybe he should ask one of the kids I know from drama because she always lets people use her locker. Then he reveled he had problems with combinations. I told him about how I use a key lock because of my poor hand eye coronation (and low muscle tone) and suggested he use a key lock too. I also mentioned that's why I don't like that game we do in drama where the person in the center has to throw a soft ball to the people who are not in the center, they throw it back and the someone has to jump into the middle. Then he asked me why I had poor hand eye coronation. At first I just said I was born with it and then I blurted out im autistic
( more like mumbled it) then said It doesn't matter because no one would treat me differently. I think he didn't here me the first time because he asked "About what" and without a second thought I slowly but surly blurted out "Well... I'm autistic.:"
His respone was "You are?" I think in a cuirus way (Like it all made sence and the light bulb went off or he got it but got reassuring because of how I told him). This is were the problem comes in .. I tried to exlain it to but only made out. "Conversations are weird/ akword" and "Its hard to explain." He said I didn't have to but I want to. Then I save "Its also why I'm so naïve sometimes." Then he said something around the lines of "....................Autistic........., your one of the greatest girls I know"(That all I remember, I think he said autistic or not, but I really don't know) I just wish I could explain it so its all clear (I know he knows what its like to be different because he's gay). I also want to say it without sounding upset or depressed but its hard because some times I feel weird and embarrassed talking about it because I don't know it they will get it . How do I explain it to him?

For many people, "autistic" is basically a synonym for "ret*d". If you can function without a minder, people ignorant of autism will not believe you if you tell them you are autistic, and will think you are just expressing frustration with yourself.

Sweet Pea hugs