technology is really frustrating me, and I'm so alone...

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Well, after being stessed out to hell and back and after my cell phone charger broke, and my cell phone broke into pieces. Then my computer wouldn't connect to the internet. and now my headphones are broken. I'm gettng really ticked off with these devices. I can't even listen to my ipod to help me calm down without working headphones. what if there's another emergancy, and I can't call anyone becuase I don't have a phone and can't get a new one anytime soon? I also happen to be extremely lonely, and have no one to talk too. even if i had a phone there's not many people I can call.
I got no where to go, no one to talk to, I'm all alone, and it's making me very angry.
I'm 20, and I've not once had a true friend, let alone a girlfriend. everywhere I go I see dozens of guys my age, out for walks holding hands with their pretty girlfreinds. I know it can never happen for me, so it really ticks me off to see how they all take love for granted. I'm about ready to either kill myself, or loss my mind entierly. which ever comes first. there's just to much stress in my life, to justify being alive.
the way I see it, there are only two things that could help. and I only need one of these two things..
either, enough money to go shopping on a reguler basis to avoid boredom, OR more pereferably, Just one speical person to stay by my side and be an important part of my life.
neither will ever happen. but I do spend alot of money on stupid things in hopes of keeping myself happy. but the reality is the only thing that could ever make me happy is to find someone to love.
I guess I'm just totally screwed for the rest of my life...

why am I always ignored? why does everyone hate me so much?

Don't take it personal. I posted a thread that felt important to me too.. even asked outright for feedback and not one response. It just seems the way of it sometimes.

I was not going to reply to you either - not because I hate you or think you don't need a response... but because I have no useful advice to give you.

I don't know what to tell you. Other than it took me to age 35 before I met someone that changed my life and took away the loneliness for companionship. Don't say never - you don't know what tomorrow holds.

I do know I had to let go of things like caring about appearances, age differences, disabilities. None of those things matter to me... hence I fell in love with a disabled man 22 years older than me shortly after.

I'm sorry you are feeling hated - but you are not hated by me.

i don't hate you. i don't know you.

What makes you think that? I'm pretty sure nobody hates you. I don't think you're being ignored either, you're just in a very difficult situation and most people probably don't know any advice to give you which explains the few replies.

I'm not really sure what advice I can give you. Ever tried joining a video games forum? There could be a chance that there are other people around your area on those forums. You might become good friends with some and eventually meet them in real life. I've met a few nice people online on Guildwars 1 and eventually got to know them in real life.

The time stamp on your post shows you made it at 3:17am and then followed up at 5:55am.

That's not a lot of time for people to reply, especially that late at night.

that's a good point.

though, i should say, backing up my original point: i don't hate you

Is there a club or interest group in your area you a thinking of joining perhaps?

For example, I am thinking of joining a sci-fi /fantasy/horror club in the near future. If you are going to college there are a lot of interest groups too.

I know bad tech days can be painful and I need my earphones commonly. Can you get a cheaper pair today until you get some extra cash?