Just kind of sadness

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I posted about it in members only, and that was really all I was going to say about it but it's bothering me so I'm just going to type it out here. If you want to comment, you are welcome to and if not that's ok too. I'm mainly just typing it out for me so I can put words on paper, or whatever the computer equivilant to that is.

I had woke up this morning actually missing Ole Boy. I had been thinking of maybe trying to think of a reason to go over there without letting him know I was missing him. I was told to make a choice months ago by both him and my husband and I chose and then had a talk with him a week or so ago about just being friends and things were ok. But I woke up missing him.

So, I got to thinking. It's Sunday and the beer store that's open is about 20 miles away and I don't want to drive up there so I could have him ride me up to the beer store in his truck. I got on FB and went to message him and saw that his house burned down last night! It's all gutted inside and only the outside is left. Holy crap!! !

He was home and asleep when it started and he doesn't know where or how it started but they will check it out and let him know. He had such a cool house too, and on some acreage. I am so shaken right now because 99% of Saturday nights he gets so drunk he passes out after he takes his meds and he's literally unable to wake up till about 9 the next morning. For some reason he wasn't last night and he was asleep when it started. Him and the dog got out ok but he lost everything.

It makes me feel terrible now that I missed him and didn't want him to know I missed him. I can't go over and look at the house. I have too many memories there to go right now. DH went to the beer store and bought him a 12 pack and took it over to him, I didn't go. I don't know where he's staying right now because we just talked about what happened and all I could ask is "Are you sure you're ok" and then I'd say "You could have been killed, I just want to hug you!"

I guess I need to tell people what I feel when I feel it, huh?

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I'm giving it another shot. We will see.
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If they're the type that let you get a word in edgewise, by all means go for it. I imagine what with the 12er you took him earlier, and the other one your DH took him, he'll be pretty well situated for the next day at least