virtual wallflower

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I spend a lot of time in chatrooms but I dont talk to peopl. I just respond and make an occasional comment about what is being said.
When people enter the room it is customary for people to greet each other with these loong name extensions (khaozzzz) and then "hugs". Everytime someone enters the room, even if it is 20 times a day. The greeting are odd enough to me but participating in the conversation is just as painful. Noone is every rude to me but noone really engages me either.
True, I am probably a good ten years older than 70% of the people who come into the room but I seldom cam anyway. I just feel comfortable wathcing, and maybe playing some music once in awhile.
Even though noone singles me out other than saying hello. I feel relly conspicuous . I never almost never say anything to anyone unless they speak to me first, not even in greeting. It all seems so alien to me. Maybe someone understands what I am trying to say.
I am just content to be part of the group, even though I am not really "part" of the group in the sense other people perceive, but I feel safe there.
Sometimes I spend all night in this room. I feel like such a freak.
Does anyone get what I am saying?

I don't go in chatrooms because I'd be trespassing.

If you replace chat room with RL, then yes. I like people around me, but don't feel a urge to interact often. An avid conversationalist I am not.