OBSESSED ALL NIGHT!! HELP!!

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I have been using YouTube as a place to access a relaxation technique...ASMR videos! I am subscribed to many of the content creators there who do these "Whispering" videos. I am soooo afraid that at some point last year that I may have made a request from one of the younger females
to do a specific "RolePlay" video. My fear is that I'm now 54 and the girl that I made a request from just recently made a video announcing that she was going to respond to MY request, but that one of my PRIOR requests to her was that she made a video similar to one that she made where she was showing a little too much bosom...but don't get me wrong... I was ONLY INTERESTED IN THE WHISPERING AND CHEWING part of the video...not her bosom! In fact, I made a point of replying to her NEW video that if she made the one that I requested, she wear something much less revealing. Her response was a nice one apologizing for the way she sometimes "shows" and that she would "be more covered" if she were to make a new video for something that I requested that was completely inocuous, but that I would really enjoy! I obsessed about it for a week, and there was NEVER any sign that I had offended anyone, but I was scared that "what if I was at any point inappropriate?" What if her dad sees her videos? What if he wants to charge me with harrassment or something? My mind was racing horribly! Over the past week, this obsession died down, because I really did not do anything offensive! But in today's world, who knows "who" can take "what" out of context?!
Saturday evening, I saw a man walk out of my building. This man was wearing a suit. An unusual sight in the building where I live. I thought (like i do whenever I overthink anything) that "what if he was there to serve ME with a subpoena???" A bad case of the "What If's" haunted my usually enjoyable Saturday evening. I began ticking like crazy, and my anxiety reached levels where I thought I was going to have a seizure!! ! My tics were so severe that by 2:00am this morning, I was RAW!! Please respond with some supportive advice! Who's been through something like this? It's all my imagination, and there has never been any indication of somebody being upset about any of my comments on YouTube. But I overthink everything. Please confirm that I am probably overthinking again!! PLEASE HELP!! !

*Goes Bright Noah on him*
"GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF!" *Bright Slaps him*
(I've always wanted to do that. Gundam Reference).

Anyway, Don't worry too much on that part, You're forgetting that the Youtuber you commented on is in a different part of the country (or a different country), and there's a high chance her father has no idea about what she does online, so you're fine.

Just don't over panic, that's a bad thing.