Once is entirely, prodigiously, overwhelming too many times for anything remotely similar to rape to happen.
It may be true that you do not have some of the same misfortunes as others, but it is unfair for anybody to say that your misfortune is not just as unfortunate to you as starvation would be to someone impoverished.
I am so sorry that you have to suffer through all that you suffer through. You should have the right to "complain," as silence only deepens the wounds of trauma. If you ever need open ears and an open heart, feel free to P.M. me.
May you soon find healing and serenity.
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I am not a textbook case of any particular disorder; I am an abstract, poetic portrayal of neurovariance with which much artistic license was taken.