Being around outgoing people who...

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...you don't really like: it is crap, especially when you know they don't like you, either.

There's this support group I go to where people are cliquey. It's like people who aren't part of the in-crowd are supposed to shut up whilst the leaders hold court. The thing is, I'm an outspoken person and hate feeling like I should know my place in a social group. When I get friends together, I'm very democratic about who gets to talk at length - I reach out to quiet people. Occasionally some people find the way I say things overly blunt and intimidating, for which I apologise.

It's not just this support group though, it's any f*****g established group I seem to encounter.

I just want to say I'm so glad WP isn't like this and people will read what I write and see what I actually have to say - rather than only pay attention to my tone of voice or my body language. I find it so odd that I feel so misunderstood in some parts of the real world but here it's like people actually understand me somewhat. Only my close friends really get me in real life. I don't have much luck with casual socialising or dating because I am so different in the way I behave and communicate. I wish I could type everything out in real life rather than talking - I would only use speech with people who already understood me enough and wanted to listen.

I am having one of those moments where I realise how autistic I actually am. I find people who see themselves as the most tolerant and humanitarian are usually not like that when it comes to people who don't behave the same way as they do. I guess it is part of human nature to be freaked out by this sort of difference but I find the hypocrisy goes down very bitter with me.

But thanks WP for being there all these years.

and thank YOU for being just the way you are