Might be moving AH and grandfather sick

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I don't want to move yet.... I don't want my great grandfather to be alone right now. my great grandmother is in a home for altzheimers and my great father has something wrong with his brain that creates temporary moments of confusion and physical health problems and falls... It's not dementia I forgot what it's called. He... asked us to move up there with because he's afraid these might be his final days. T_T

I don't want to lose him. He's always been there for me unconditionally. He's loved me no matter what. Gay, straight, piercings, no piercings, pink hair, brown hair, etc. He's been so precious in my life and so has my great grandmother. She made me a crochet blanket for me and whoever I marry... before she lost her memory and went child like. I'm also scared that because my AS I won't cry when he dies.... what if I don't? I want to.

But I'm also afraid of moving... Have to make new friends and possibly lose new ones I've just made, change, new routine, a new state to live in, a new life... I don't know if I can handle that... But I want to be there for him. I'm just so troubled. We don't even know if we are gonna do it yet but... I don't know... My birth dad and half brothers and sister (I'm adopted) live up there and my grandma so there's a plus. But the negative is a big deal. I don't know what to do.

So very sorry about your great grandparents - they're very special and they obviously regard you the same. Please don't be scared though - Aspies might express emotion differently but there's nothing, at all, to be ashamed of. Grief is an intensely private matter and everyone senses it differently. Besides, they already know how much you love them and that's unconditional and forever. I don't think you need to do anything, except remember them.

The crocheted blanket she made for your future is a lovely gift - you'll always have that. Personally, I've moved so many times and I always hate it. Totally understandable it's especially hard for you right now given the circumstances. Well, also remember to take care of yourself right now too.