Why would you do that?

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It hurts me so bad when people break the rules. I dont get why theyd do it. It physically distresses me. And I dont understand why people do it. Why would you say one thing and do another? I dont get it. It hurts me. Its painful and it hurts at work. Everyone is so rude. I dont get it. There are societal rules for politeness but people break it and it hurts me. It makes me cry. I feel so upset.

I just dont get why theyd do that. There are structures for things. And everythings better in structures. Its efficient and but they break it. Why would they? Why would someone have bad intentions? I cant comprehend it. I physically cant. How can people hurt others? Why would they do that?

I feel like everything people do distresses me and Im always asking why would you do that.

And it doesnt make sense. I follow the rules for social interaction but it mever turns out good. Why arent people following their own rules? In professional settings people follow rules and its ok. I like that. I know what I am to people and what to do or not, but otherwise I dont. Its like they made rules that they dont follow and its almost like is it a joke? And people physically cant grasp their error. Ive tried to communicate that theyre not following the rules and how to follow them, but they dont get it. How can they not see what theyre doing? Its distressing. I just want to scream!

Im not socially bad in the classic sense. I understand the rules. Because of the emotional trauma in my life, psychology is my special interest. And I understand it. But others dont. Like.. How? I dont get it? And when people have to improvise or be creative, I cant believe it. How did they do that? I cant be creative at all. I draw but I draw with strict guidelines to reality. When things arent realistic in art it distresses me. Its physically painful to look at. All I can see are flaws. And I just cant...

I cant.

Why would anyone do that?


Help help please I domt know wht to do. Please it hurts so bad

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I havent been sleeping.

Since learning about aspergers, its always been in the back of my mind. I never really faced it because it's become a strange fad, in much the same way being bisexual was when I was in middle school. I wasn gonna be an attention seeker..

But now I'm confronted with it. I'm being forced to actually.. Dig deep. Which is doubly harder because I suffer from emotional trauma from my parents. So.. To. Let my defense mechanism go and face me is painful.

I just.. Was layin out my thoughts on why I may be different, and this poped up. I've always felt I had a grasp on things, but I guess I learned different rules? I'm not sure.

It's just distressing.

I'm scared because I identify so very much with aspergers that.. Im scared I'm wrong. Because if I'm wrong then I'm psychotic. If I'm not aspergers, I ahave psycosis. Which is.. Scary. Im mentally clear as far as I can tell. But O think most of all.. The loneliness I've denied all these years, the struggles I turned a blind eye to... Asperger's makes sense. I'd finally have people to connect with.

I'm just.. Idk. I dont want to be attention seeking. Id hate myself.

Edit: sorry I ranted. And I mean no offense or harm to people who have psychosis, it's just a hard illness to deal with.

To wrap up my point,
I just was asking myself what might be different, discovered that I need rules and function by them, and just.. Work myself into distress thinkin about it.

Your post seems to be emotional in nature, so this may not be the information you're looking for... but as I understand it:

Firstly, rules don't exist for their own sake, they have a reason to be there, in the case of social rules they are a formal set of protocols which people adopt to ease the exchange of information, without undesirable effects such as upsetting one another. But rules can be treated flexibly: if following a certain rule isn't necessary, for no undesirable effect will be experienced, there is no reason to still follow the rule.
Secondly, we are rebellious by nature. We have an inherent tendency to break rules and agreements, especially if they exist on a large scale. Which is because everyone has a craving to become unique, rather than being part of the rule following masses, if they feel they are not. So here is a rather active factor in as to why people don't follow rules.
Lastly, and I feel this may be the most relevant: we are selfish by nature. People will feel there is no reason to follow a rule if not doing it results in no undesirable consequences for themself. Fortunately, empathy is a mechanism that drives people, on a more instinctual level, to treat others (or at least those they empathize with) as themself. If a person, then, lacks empathic value for another (there can be various reasons for this, including a psychological problem on his own side, I'm sure you're familiar with this since psychology is your special interest), he will naturally not bother to follow the agreements, in fact, concerning politeness rules, he may even find pleasure in upsetting others.

Sorry for rambling, this post became way bigger than I originally intended... but I hope at least some of this is useful in understanding the actual "why".

I.. I mean. I get the facts. But I cant deal with it. I.. Don't get that flexibility. I'm trying not to meltdown again here, so I won't detail it.

I feel like that's my connection to aspergers. I.. Understand that I'm not so-called emotionless. In dact, I feel too much. I feel so strong. I've gad people not even understand how or why or what the depth is. And that's how I can't relate. If some people have rigidity in so-called logical thinking, I'm rigid to emotions. But the emotions are so logical. There's a precise art, a math, to it.

(Sorry. I'm kind of just.. Feeling things out and I have so many thoughts and I don't know how to not.)

So uhm. Ya.
Thank you for taking the time to write all that! It's very interesting. From osychiatric perspective (please excuse spellong errors; I'm typing from my iphone and typing faster than the thing can process; so there's a split second of lag enough to cause it to register my finger in a different place). My question then is, how are they not all ill? If they truly had empathy they wouldnt be mean or so selfish. I try and always be concious of what I'm doing and how it will affect the world. I.. I'm just. How can empathy be a slidong scale? If someone had empathy, it'd be enough to start them in not being so mean. It would be a chain reaction.


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I just lost that train of thought. : ( I csnt express what I mean...

I apologize.

Thank you for replying.