The Haven seemed like the best place to post this topic. To be honest, I don't know if what I am about to describe is correlated with Asperger's or introversion (I do test as an introvert), or whether everyone goes through a similar thing at a time in their lives. Anyhow, I have been thrown into a mental state in which my mind reviews (over and over again), events throughout life that were slightly off color or embarrassing, even though some of them happened 30-50 years ago (I am 57). These tend to involve times when I reacted in an odd way to an occurrence, said something that was taken the wrong way, or when I was not particularly nice or, conversely, not treated very nicely.
It's not guilt over theft, or bodies in the basement types of things, just small issues. In the general scheme of things, I get the impression that most neurotypicals would have long since forgotten stuff like this. I hasten to add that this follows (by about a year), losing both my parents to natural causes, getting laid off and working from my desk at home a lot. I wonder if these rather stressful milestones crept up with me, and these torrents of memories over minor embarrassments, etc were somehow shaken up. It's as if all of these memories had been deposited in one spot in my brain had have been stirred up like a nest of hornets! It's said that introverts tend to review and replay their interactions with people - like a mental move - but the Asperger's could certainly add to the obsessive nature of the ones I am experiencing.
Just curious-
Has anyone else heard of this, or gone through it?
Does it eventually turn off?
03 Nov 2013, 7:39 pm
