I just cant stand it

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Last year school sucked, but it wasn't all that bad. I had a few friends, and I wasn't really bullied (that much, considering).

But my friends have gradutaed and moved on, and I've gone from being surrounded by friends to being surrounded by enemies. I was a member of every school club and organization, but have stopped showing up to nearly all of them.

Right now, I am actually in school, in a play. I used to love acting but now the people I got along with graduated and the people who torture me joined up. I'm not on stage right now, and most people hang out backstage, chat, and wait for their cue. Im sitting isolated in a pitch black room, hiding out.

One thing they really like to do is grab at me because they know I cannot stand being touched.

Counselors really dont have time for me, I've lost contact with my few friends, and my mother says that I should "try and get along with people" and that I must have "done something to make them target me".

I have always been an outcast, but never before have I felt like everyone is against me.

sorry about your situation, especially about your mom's attitude. a mom is the one person who should always be on your side.

kudos to you for being involved in a play. break a leg!

Perhaps it's time to cut your losses move on from this bad situation (as it has become), rather than continuing to suffer from it. Are there any other local theatre groups you could join? Regard it as a form of personal development.

You see situations change with different groups of people. Later in life you have more control and can try to steer yourself to stay in better situations. But right now you may have to simply survive the bad situation. But rather then withdraw from all interactions (clubs, societies) it would be better to pick and choose based on which have better or worse people.

Ugh. That totally, completely sucks.

The thing I disliked the most about being in school was the feeling of being stuck. But is this your last year - senior? Whenever, once you are out of school life will be very different.

Congrats, though, on making those changes that you needed to make to take care of yourself. It is so lame that even the theatre kids are being jerks. So much for the arts fostering open minds.

I hope that as the year progresses some new friends will emerge. Otherwise, until school is over, this might be the chance to devote some time to individual interests, whatever those might be for you.

Either way, I admire that you had the strength of character to remove yourself from hurtful settings.

Your mother may mean well but not understand bullying. www.stopbullying.gov
may help her understand it is the bully's personality that is the cause (plus teachers letting it happen).
The "who is at risk" section describes the kind of people drawn to bullying.
There are probably other sites and research but this is the only one I know of.

Thanks for all the advice you guys, though frankly the situation got worst afterwards and during intermission, and it escalated to a point so unfortunate that I didn't go to school today (and I always have perfect attendance )

Sorry to hear that. I don't know what the answer is. I don't know how to stop people who enjoy torturing others if the people in authority don't do anything to stop them.

For what it's worth, I feel your pain and frustration. Sending good thoughts your way.