Randomly frustrated and unhappy!? humility req'd?

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Anyone else get bouts of random frustration and unhappiness with your life? Even when things seem fine?

I get these spells that I think I could/should be doing more with my life, I have such potential... yet all I can really manage is a mostly full-time, medium-skilled job plus long-term relationship. There is no direction in my career, I just go to work, do the same stuff, come home and be grateful I still have a job and worry nonstop about all social encounters of the day.

I feel caught between being okay with everything and wanting much, much more for myself (to do charity work, complete my bachelor's, help my parents more, move on with life by getting a better apt (to match my better job))

I want to learn to play the violin, teach people on the spectrum how to cook, be a really good wife to my husband (also ASD), and be more of a part of my family.

Something just gets in the way... like, I want to do stuff but can't muster more energy for new stuff, change.... CHANGE!! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !

So what's up with this... should I be humble and grateful to have anything going right and stop trying to 'advance myself' or grow as a person because it takes too much energy when it's already spent doing what I do? Or should I keep pushing myself to leave energy for stuff I want to do when all I have to do is completed? I just can't find the energy... I feel like life is like juggling ... have to keep all these ball sin the air at once and any inattention causes the whole thing to cascade, starting with dropping one ball... my balls are: (yeah that sounds weird, I know) Romantic relationship, job, parents, running the household. I have at best 3 hours a day to focus on anything "self-improvement" oriented, which usually ends up getting wasted by trying to pick which self improvement project I want to undertake or keep working on.

Sheesh... what is one to do....

Yes. I think that is a common feeling. Nothing really wrong, but nothing going on that makes you feel really alive and excited or at least really engaged with things.

Lack of energy is a really big factor.

Reminds me of the old image of having a tiny advisor on each shoulder. One saying 'Come on! Get up! Get moving!' and the other saying 'Oh don't listen to that slave driver' 'Relax, your tired.' 'Your shoulder is sore.' etc.

I think its true that we can't approach things as we once did with kids energy, but you don't want to stagnate either. Taking on just one new thing or project at a time works ok for me, but you still have to fight the motivation fight. Sometimes every day.

Wish you luck.

Yes, I have felt that way. More so in the past than at present, and it is something on which I continue to work.

Seems I have this Type A personality that compels me to do more and more - increasingly beyond my ability to actually accomplish.

I have found humility and gratitude to be very helpful, when I can remember to practice them.